Frost's Soulmate
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1 through F › Blade (All)
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
16
Views:
1,940
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I do not own the Blade series, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
I Know I Could Love You Much Better Than This
Author's Note- The Song is "Full of Grace" by Sarah McLachlan.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I Know I Could Love You Much Better Than This
~*~
“The winter here's cold, and bitter
It's chilled us to the bone.
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
Too long too far from home.”
~*~
When Raven finally fell asleep it was midday. She awoke again at dusk, feeling nauseous. Deacon was already awake having gotten up and procuring two glasses of blood. “Hungry?” he asked pouring some of his into Mr. Whisker’s bowl.
Her stomach lurched. “No thanks,” she said. “I fed yesterday.” He frowned slightly. “I’m fine.”
“I was watching the kitchen yesterday, I would have seen you go in,” he said his eyes narrowed. She winced. “What’s going on?”
“I… I don’t know where to start.”
“I suggest you find a place.”
~*~
“I feel just like I'm sinking
And I claw for solid ground.
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low,
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.”
~*~
Raven looked down at the bedspread. This was her worst nightmare. He’d never believe her. “Deacon, sit down.”
“What’s wrong?” he demanded, choosing to sit in the computer chair, across the room from her.
“I…”
“Spit it out.”
“I’m pregnant.”
“Really?” it was asked so flatly, so devoid of emotion that she winced again.
“I, I don’t know how it happened but-”
Deacon snorted. “It’s obvious how it happened, sweetheart.”
“Deacon-”
“What? Am I supposed to believe that it’s mine?”
“I’ve never been with another-”
“Save it, Raven.”
~*~
“If all of the strength and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place.
I know I could love you much better than this,
Full of grace”
~*~
She tried to swallow but the lump in her throat wouldn’t allow it. “I’m serious, please just listen to me.”
“Why?” he demanded getting to his feet. “After the fuckin’ hard time you gave me for almost sleeping with Mercury you were fucking some other guy? Why should I listen to one goddamned thing you say!?”
She tried to tell herself that she had expected this, and she had, that didn’t make it any easier. “I-”
“You know what, I don’t want to hear it. Get out.”
“Please, just-”
“Raven, I’m giving you a chance to leave of your own accord. Don’t make me throw you out.”
“I love you,” she sobbed.
“Liar,” he growled. “Was last night your pity fuck? Give the chump one last night before ripping out his fuckin’ heart?”
~*~
“So it's better this way, I said
Having seen this place before.
Where everything we said and did
Hurts us all the more.”
~*~
“No,” she tried. “I do love you. Deacon, I’d never cheat on you. I swear.”
“Get the fuck out of my sight,” he barked.
“Please,” she whispered standing and stepping towards him slowly. “Please, just hear me out. You know me- I would never… I don’t know how it happened but it did. This baby is ours.” She started to touch his shoulder but he grabbed her arm.
“Don’t you dare touch me,” he said his tone low and deadly. “I’m sick of your lies. Tell me the fuckin’ truth. Who was it?”
“There’s no one else. There never was.”
“Get the fuck out of my sight, slut.” She flinched as though struck.
“Deacon-”
“Fuck it, I’ll leave.” He threw a set of keys to the floor. “Take your fuckin’ clothes, the cat, whatever the fuck you want and get the fuck out of my life. I never want to fucking see you again.” Her knees almost buckled as she sobbed. As she looked up at him she could have sworn his eyes were wet too, but that must have been her own tears. Deacon Frost didn’t cry.
~*~
“Its just that we stayed,
Too long in the same old sickly skin.
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low,
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.”
~*~
“Don’t leave,” she was almost begging now. She couldn’t do this all alone.
“Goodbye Raven,” he said his tone clipped. He turned and strode out that door. “Be gone by the time I get back or I’ll have you thrown out.” She heard the elevator door ding and he was gone. Now her knees did give out.
She stayed crumpled up on the floor for a good fifteen minutes sobbing. Mr. Whiskers came over and allowed her to pick him up and cuddle with him as she wept into his coat. Finally she was able to get her emotions under wraps enough to grab a duffle bag and throw a few of her outfits into it. She found a carrier in the back of the closet and, taking Deacon at his word, placed Mr. Whiskers inside. She needed something of Deacon to hold onto.
Still crying, she got out a piece of paper and wrote a letter, leaving it on the bed for him. Perhaps he’d read it, maybe not. Either way this was it. They hurt each other one too many times. She was done. But, God, it hurt.
She, picked up the keys, shouldered the bag, and carried the cat carrier to the elevator and rode it down. She was still shaking all over when the elevator arrived at the ground floor. Mercury was standing with Quinn when she arrived. Things between the women had been tense since Deacon’s near transgression. Still, she walked towards the other woman calmly. Mercury tensed, clearly expecting a fight.
~*~
“If all of the strength and all of the courage come
And lift me from this place.
I know I could love you much better than this,
Full of grace”
~*~
What actually came out of Raven’s mouth shocked Mercury. “Take care of him,” she said simply.
“What?” Not bothering to answer, Raven turned and walked out the door, finding Deacon’s car sitting in front of the building. She threw the bag into the back and sat the carrier in the back seat. She started the car and pulled away, managing to get to the city limits before her tears overtook her again. At least they couldn’t hurt each other any more. It was over.
~*~
“I know I could love you much better than this,
Its better this way….
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I Know I Could Love You Much Better Than This
~*~
“The winter here's cold, and bitter
It's chilled us to the bone.
We haven't seen the sun for weeks
Too long too far from home.”
~*~
When Raven finally fell asleep it was midday. She awoke again at dusk, feeling nauseous. Deacon was already awake having gotten up and procuring two glasses of blood. “Hungry?” he asked pouring some of his into Mr. Whisker’s bowl.
Her stomach lurched. “No thanks,” she said. “I fed yesterday.” He frowned slightly. “I’m fine.”
“I was watching the kitchen yesterday, I would have seen you go in,” he said his eyes narrowed. She winced. “What’s going on?”
“I… I don’t know where to start.”
“I suggest you find a place.”
~*~
“I feel just like I'm sinking
And I claw for solid ground.
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low,
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.”
~*~
Raven looked down at the bedspread. This was her worst nightmare. He’d never believe her. “Deacon, sit down.”
“What’s wrong?” he demanded, choosing to sit in the computer chair, across the room from her.
“I…”
“Spit it out.”
“I’m pregnant.”
“Really?” it was asked so flatly, so devoid of emotion that she winced again.
“I, I don’t know how it happened but-”
Deacon snorted. “It’s obvious how it happened, sweetheart.”
“Deacon-”
“What? Am I supposed to believe that it’s mine?”
“I’ve never been with another-”
“Save it, Raven.”
~*~
“If all of the strength and all of the courage
Come and lift me from this place.
I know I could love you much better than this,
Full of grace”
~*~
She tried to swallow but the lump in her throat wouldn’t allow it. “I’m serious, please just listen to me.”
“Why?” he demanded getting to his feet. “After the fuckin’ hard time you gave me for almost sleeping with Mercury you were fucking some other guy? Why should I listen to one goddamned thing you say!?”
She tried to tell herself that she had expected this, and she had, that didn’t make it any easier. “I-”
“You know what, I don’t want to hear it. Get out.”
“Please, just-”
“Raven, I’m giving you a chance to leave of your own accord. Don’t make me throw you out.”
“I love you,” she sobbed.
“Liar,” he growled. “Was last night your pity fuck? Give the chump one last night before ripping out his fuckin’ heart?”
~*~
“So it's better this way, I said
Having seen this place before.
Where everything we said and did
Hurts us all the more.”
~*~
“No,” she tried. “I do love you. Deacon, I’d never cheat on you. I swear.”
“Get the fuck out of my sight,” he barked.
“Please,” she whispered standing and stepping towards him slowly. “Please, just hear me out. You know me- I would never… I don’t know how it happened but it did. This baby is ours.” She started to touch his shoulder but he grabbed her arm.
“Don’t you dare touch me,” he said his tone low and deadly. “I’m sick of your lies. Tell me the fuckin’ truth. Who was it?”
“There’s no one else. There never was.”
“Get the fuck out of my sight, slut.” She flinched as though struck.
“Deacon-”
“Fuck it, I’ll leave.” He threw a set of keys to the floor. “Take your fuckin’ clothes, the cat, whatever the fuck you want and get the fuck out of my life. I never want to fucking see you again.” Her knees almost buckled as she sobbed. As she looked up at him she could have sworn his eyes were wet too, but that must have been her own tears. Deacon Frost didn’t cry.
~*~
“Its just that we stayed,
Too long in the same old sickly skin.
I'm pulled down by the undertow,
I never thought I could feel so low,
Oh darkness I feel like letting go.”
~*~
“Don’t leave,” she was almost begging now. She couldn’t do this all alone.
“Goodbye Raven,” he said his tone clipped. He turned and strode out that door. “Be gone by the time I get back or I’ll have you thrown out.” She heard the elevator door ding and he was gone. Now her knees did give out.
She stayed crumpled up on the floor for a good fifteen minutes sobbing. Mr. Whiskers came over and allowed her to pick him up and cuddle with him as she wept into his coat. Finally she was able to get her emotions under wraps enough to grab a duffle bag and throw a few of her outfits into it. She found a carrier in the back of the closet and, taking Deacon at his word, placed Mr. Whiskers inside. She needed something of Deacon to hold onto.
Still crying, she got out a piece of paper and wrote a letter, leaving it on the bed for him. Perhaps he’d read it, maybe not. Either way this was it. They hurt each other one too many times. She was done. But, God, it hurt.
She, picked up the keys, shouldered the bag, and carried the cat carrier to the elevator and rode it down. She was still shaking all over when the elevator arrived at the ground floor. Mercury was standing with Quinn when she arrived. Things between the women had been tense since Deacon’s near transgression. Still, she walked towards the other woman calmly. Mercury tensed, clearly expecting a fight.
~*~
“If all of the strength and all of the courage come
And lift me from this place.
I know I could love you much better than this,
Full of grace”
~*~
What actually came out of Raven’s mouth shocked Mercury. “Take care of him,” she said simply.
“What?” Not bothering to answer, Raven turned and walked out the door, finding Deacon’s car sitting in front of the building. She threw the bag into the back and sat the carrier in the back seat. She started the car and pulled away, managing to get to the city limits before her tears overtook her again. At least they couldn’t hurt each other any more. It was over.
~*~
“I know I could love you much better than this,
Its better this way….