A Tale

Chapter 2

We moved into together a few months later. After dating her for a while I couldnt bare to be with out her. I always wanted to wake up to see that smiling face. To feel that warm naked body next to mine. What? We'er adults theres nothing wrong with healthy fucking sex life. Dont be a prude. But it was a Saturday morning, We were laying in bed together. She was sleeping next to me but I had on cartoons anyways. Cartoon Network. I'd die with out my PowerPuff Girls. I called Helen Bubbles sometimes. She was blond, dumb and cute all at once..but a wild cat in the sack. She would tearup. up. I swear I need to be the Bionic Man to keep up with her. And the mouth on her. I swear when you look at her she looks like an Angel, so untained and perfect. Behind closed doors. I thought her ass possessed! It scared me at first but then I was like hey..nothing like a good ride right? Again I say perfect. Any girl that willing to use some of the words she used..sidetracked again. Damn. So where was I? Oh yeah..

Saturday morning. It was pretold old in our place. It was summer but that air was cranked up. Her thin arms were around me. I felt her shiver a bit so I pulled her closer to me. Keeping her warm by my side. Couldnt ever let anything happen to my baby. I had the TV turned down some so it didnt wake her. She could sleep through an earthquake. I know. We lived in California by this point. She opened those eyes and looked at me in that sleepy haze.

"Hey.." she said to me in that husky voice she started to sit up some but once that cold hair hit her skin..she was back under those covers right next to me holding onto me with everything she had.

"Brrrr! Turn the air off! It's like Alaska in here!"

"Hel, baby if I get up and turn off the air. What the hell do you think is gonna happen. It's gonna get hot..and instead of Alaska your gonna get baked fucking Alasak."

"So? It's cold..unless you can think of things to keep me warm.."

God what did I tell you? Perfect? So you can figure out what we did next. Doesnt take a genuis only a dirty fucking mind. If you have one. But it was right after where I fucked up.

I was holding her in my arms we laid awake together like for a while not saying anything, just holding each other sharing body heat. I was smoking a joint. She hated it that I smoked so much but she never tried to change me. Tried to cut my hair once when I was sleeping...luckily I woke up. Thought the crazy bitch was trying to kill me! Then I felt her tugging my hair and she gave me that innocent smile and hid the scissors behind her back telling me I was just dreaming. I wasnt. I do remember turning my head and kissing her forehead.

"I wanna travel. Ya know go see the country..or the world. Maybe over in Europe..I havent seen it yet."

"You dont wanna go there. It's no fun there. Blah."

"Blah? That your word of the day?"

Yeah she had them.

"No. I'm just saying why would you want to travel? You got everything you need right here." She was trying to be cute. I saw in the look. In here eyes I saw she was serious. What are you supposed to say to that? Hey I'm sorry baby but some of my needs you cant fulfill? That would go over real well with her. Of course your only getting half the story.

"Yeah. I do. I got you. But I mean wouldnt it be fun..just me and you. We could back pack see everything. I mean arent like woods romantic?"

"Sure we can hang around and wait for a werewolf to come eat us. 'Cause you know that's always fun"

I remember her saying that with a laugh. She always had her own way with words and phrases.

"Helen I'm serious. I really want to travel. Me and you. It would be great for the both of us. We could see the world..I know you would love that. You love doing things like that."

That's when she sat up, she even held the covers up on her chest. Right there. Bad sign. She was never modest. She peed while I was in the shower for crying outloud. Iw itw it was bad when she covered herself.

"But that's not what I want to do. I told you what I wanted. I wanted me and you..get a house on a beach.."

I cut her off right there.

"You want a family Helen. You want us to get married..you want to pop out a couple of kids. That's fine and great and all but there.."

then she cut me off.

"Are things I wanna do before I get married" She mimicked me..would have been cute if I didnt have a good idea as to what was going to come next.

"Josh I know your not ready for all that yet. And I'm ok with that. But I'm happy with where we'er at now. I mean we'er great. Sure we might not have alot now, but I know things will get better. I love you. But I just dont find back packing anywheres fun. not not an explorer. I'm me. Very far from roughing it."

"But you'd be with me" I tried to entice her. Not to self. Never try to entice a girl with yourself. It doesnt work.

"And I can say the same to you..you'd be here with me. Everything would be perfect..like it is now..why change a great thing Josh?"

And that's when I got out of bed. I grabbed the nearest pair of boxers I could find and thre them on and started to pace around the room, by that time I didnt even feel the cold. But I did feel the heat of her glare on my back when I got out of bed.

"That's not the point Helen. This is just the one thing I want..then we can have your dream life. The whole marriage..even the kids. Because I'd love to be a father. I'd make a great dad."

"Sure if you could put the joint down for a second."

"What the fuck is wrong with you? Your never this cranky after sex."

"Its not the sex Josh. It's you. This whole trek through Europe. It's crazy. It's just not what I want. I dont want to do it. It has nothing to do with you. It's just that I dont want to. I dont understand why your making such a big deal about this."

"Because it's something I want. I've done everything you wanted..when you drag me tho those Film Nior things. I dont even fucking know what those are! But I go because you want to. Because it makes you smile. I'd do anything to get a smile on your face."

"And I dont?"

Great I just walked my dumb ass into that one didnt I? I should have saw that one coming a mile away. But it just snuck up on. You'd think I would have learned right?

"That's not what I ment Helen. You know that."

"No. That's what it sounds like to me. I cant even believe we'er having this discussion!" Helen said to me. Yeah your probably wondering why I called her Bubbles..like I said. I fucked up.

"Helen. I want to travel. I always told you that. I always told you I wanted to travel. I dont like being in place to long." Thats what I told her..then what she next about broke my heart.

"Yeah. 'Cause you keep getting arressted and I gotta bail you out of jail in the middle of the night. You just dont wanna get caught."

Now. To you that might not be such a big deal, but hear my precious doll say something like that to me. Shatterred me. I just knew there how much she thought of me. Apperently she just thought I was scumball looser who kept arrested.

"Alright. Since I'm such a fucking burden to you. Why dont I just leave? Get the fuck out of your face. So you dont gotta bail my sorry ass outta jail anymore. Ya know I like to think I dont have any regrets. But I so regret following you in that diner and meeting you. You are a selfish lil bitch who's gotta have everything her way or no way. I'm so fucking glad I never asked you to marry if I had..I'd wouldnt have to go to jail to have a ball and fucking chain."

And there. Right there when those words left my mouth I regretted them I regret them to this day. Yeah I know I dont like to think I have any..and truthfully I dont regret following her in that diner..but I regret saying those words to her. Those were the last words I said to her. But when I saw her face. I saw my own world come crumbling down. She pouted. She could pout her soul back from the Devil. But I'm not the Devil. Her eyes watered up with tears, but I had to stay strong because I knew even if i tried to say something to make it better, not even a Powerpuff Girl band aid would be cute enough to close that wound. I was terrified of what would happen next..but nothing did..and that scared me even more.

So what did I do? Your asking. Well. I got dressed. Left my things there. Left her there. My one possession. The on thing I never wanted to live without. She gave me a chance. I wonder what she would think of me know. Scarred up, weak. I just hope where ever she is..she's with angels. No..she's not dead..but to her. I probably am. I always wanted to keep her safe. Protect her from the world. She was gentle and weak. And always scared. She let me in..and I crushed her. But she tought me about life. She tought me how to live. She always said you have to live life while lifes a living or you might as well be dead. I never thank you for that. Now I'll never have the chance.

Yeah..I get teary eyed sometimes thinking about her. Things werent always bad. I dont even know what happened that morning. I dont know how it got blown out of porportion. But if she was with me tonight. I'd make her laugh just one more time. I'd make her smile so wide. Just to watch those eyes light up..and know that someone was watching over us. That someone wanted us to be happy. We were. She was everything to me. Everything I could never be she was. She took care of me in ways I never thought existed. Mentally, emotionally. Helen was an inspiration to me. Why I wanted to travel..I thought she'd want to be with me. I guess that cant happen huh?

So ya know what I thought? I thought I could forget about her. So I did what I wanted. Travled..then ya know what happened next. Met those two girls..I thought ya know what I'm not with Helen anymore. Why the hell not? But when they start playing tic tac toe with sharp objects on my stomach,,not my idea of a good time. At that moment I thought I was going to fucking die. My last thought was of that cute pixie blond I met. The one that made me wage war.

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Chapter 3

"Hey..you awake?" Scud asked the person in the room with him,

"I said go to sleep."

"Didnt you hear the story?"

"I was trying not to. But it was a nice story. Now go to bed."

"So? Man I just spilt my guts to you."

"Not before you did the girls."

"Blade man that was just wrong. I was trying to tell you how I got here in the first place."

"Did I ask?" Blade asked the Shaggy haired man near him, He was trying to sleep. Now He really didnt need sleep, But after that story Scud just told him, his eyes were begging to be closed and his ears wanted to be deaf.

"No. But I thought you might be curious."

"Heres a tip Scud. You might live longer. Never tell anyone to much about yourself. For one. They dont care. Two. It's boring. And Three. It can get you killed."

Scud just nodded his head to the man he could understand that. He didnt want anyone using Helen to get to him..that wouldnt be good at all. Then again who could possible use her to get to him?


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Epilogue


I see her around me. I see her in everything. I know I could be so much more then this. As I watched Blade sleep I wondered if Helen was sleeping. If she was thinking about me. I said my goodbyes to her everynight in my dreams. I never got to say them to her. I always wondered what she would think of me now? A back stabber..a trader..but all this had to stay in my head..I was two faced. I was with a guy who saved my life...yet I was screwing him over. I didnt need to add in the part where I left Helen and I was so shattered and broke that I sold my sold to Overlord Damiskinos. I was his familar. I didnt know what I was doing. It seemed like a good move then. I shouldnt regret it. Better a pet then cattle..and if I was really lucky..then maybe I could get Helen back...who was I kidding. I had a good life. Got to do what I do best. Make weapons. Watch my Powerpuff Girls..travel around the world. Sure we'er looking for Blades old man Whistler..that's alright though. It's good in the long run. I'll see her again. Even it's only when close my eyes. She'll be there. My Bubbles. My Angel. My Helen of Troy. When Blades out of the picture..I'll get her again. Man..this was gonna be so much fun.

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