We're all monsters here

She watched quietly while the woman went from store to store buying useless trinkets. She found that the more she watched the woman the more pissed off she got, and the more pissed off she got the harder it got to control her anger. She often compared her temper to that of a wild beast, violent, unpredictable, and dangerous. Though she worked hard to keep her beast under control it sometimes got the best of her and got her into trouble.

 Her mind wandered as she kept tabs on the woman who was going into yet another store. Helion Prime, that's where all this started, well more accurately it started on her now demolished home world of Terratoessa courtesy of the Necromongers, but none the less, the reason she was on this god forsaken planet was because she messed up and lost control of her "beast" and killed someone, it wasn't her fault, not truly anyway, he had it coming.



 She came to Helion Prime with nothing but a few hundred credits, a fucked up ship, her three younger brothers, a note telling her to go to one of her mothers friends houses saying she would take them in, and the clothes on her back. She did as the note said and found the woman's house which wasn't too hard, it was beautiful and large, with lavender planted all around. She and her brother slowly walked up the five steps to the door. With the twins in her arms she couldn't knock so her brother Altos did, his face a straight mask, his hand steady when hers would have shook, his face was dirty but lacked the lines of tears that her face had. He was so strong and brave, she should have been the calm one, she was the oldest after all, she was their guardian, their protector, and here she was a twelve years old, already considered a woman on her planet, openly crying while her eight year old brother was so calm. She willed her self to stop the flow of tears, she had to be strong for them she was all the family they had left and visa versa, she quickly wiped her face on her shoulder to get rid of the evidence of weakness. All that was left to do was wait for someone to answer the door.



A minute or so passed before they even heard a sound, but to her it felt like a thousand years. A female voice sounded within, she wasn't sure what she said but after some thought decided she meant for them to hang on, none of the children spoke a lick of the common tongue besides her, and she knew very little, her mother had only begun teaching her a week or so before the Necromongers came looking for new converts. As she recalled that day her stomache started to burn with intense hatred and loathing, they had come expecting her people to kneel as so many had before them, to freely join them, oh they had expected a fight to be sure, most planets fought them for a time, but they always gave in or perished.



She remembered the comet, it was so bright and pretty in the dark green sky, surely something so beautiful could not be evil, she didn't understand why her mother and father were so scared but she knew something was wrong when everyone started hoarding weapons. Her people never used weapons, they were collected purely for ascetic value, something to look at with awe, they were nothing but something to hang on your wall. Her people had strongly preferred the use of their own brute strength and aptitude for hand to hand combat, seeing weapons as cheating, but they knew they could not rely on their strength alone for this war they were about to fight and had begun training with guns and knives. Along with being unusually strong they were also unusually intelligent and quickly learned how to use every weapon they had, but that to was not enough.



 They fought and fought, her mother and father included, they fought for weeks killing every Necromonger they came into contact with losing only a few hundred compared to their thousands, until the mongers got tired of losing people and set up explosives everywhere. Her parents were one of the very few who knew what they were, and immediately began prepping their ship to leave while her prideful people kept fighting. Her mother and father quickly gathered the children and ran to where they kept the small ship the used to go off world to gather data, they had been scientist, two of the startling few on her planet. As her father helped Altos and her up into the ship he started handing  her her twin brothers Kovin and Krit one at a time, as he was doing that her mother stepped over to stand next to her father, she had been writing something on a piece of paper and was now handing it to her along with some money. The look in their eyes still haunted her dreams. It was her father who spoke first.

** means they are speaking their language

"** We love you you know that.**" he said his voice thick with emotion as he leaned in and hugged them, he smelled of blood and sweat. What he said wasn't strange in the least but she knew the meaning behind his words as did Altos it seemed for his pale skin got paler, he stayed quite. As soon as he finished embracing each child her mother started talking before she could say anything.



"** This ship is meant for only two people, its risky to have all four of you in the ship as is let alone all six of us... We can't come with you**" Sasha tried to interrupt but her mother continued. "** We love you very very much but we can't risk it, we can't have you all in danger, the paper I gave you is the address of one of our friends she will take you in and  care for you, her name is Helen, i've already typed the address in for the ship so don't touch any of the controls, it should land a half mile or so from her house.**" She looked me right in the eye and continued. "** You must protect them Sasha, with your life if need be. You're all they have now**" she said as if they were already dead, her mother was now crying."** I love you all.**" her mother finished with tears in her eyes, she leaned in and kissed each child then pushed three buttons and quickly got out of the way, simultaneously the door closed and the ship started to lift off. Her and Altos looked down on their parents grim faces as the ship went higher and higher until they all they saw was a a small green dot then a great big explosion.



Someone finally answered the door stirring her from her thoughts. Sasha looked upon a kind old face of a women, she must be Helen. The kind look in her eyes made the pain in her stomach stop and made her remember what she was there for. She wasn't sure if the women spoke her language, just because Helen knew her parents didn't mean she knew Terashin so she tried very hard to make her self understood in the common tongue that she herself scarcely spoke a word of.



" Great fire hurt world, mother dead father dead world dead. Mother told us to find you says you help us"  her speech was halting and she had to stop for seconds at a time to remember the right words but it seemed like the woman understood. Her brother being the level headed one reached into her pocket and took out the note, when she had been in the ship she had reread that note a hundred times at least but could never read the last bit of it that seemed to be in English she supposed it was for Helen's eyes only. Altos handed Helen the note and as she read it silent tears streamed down her face and it took every once of self control to not start crying again with her.



 The note did not lie Helen took them in and taught them the common tongue and in return Sasha taught Helen Terashin. They stayed with her for close to six years. Growing up with a grandma like figure did wonders for them, like all children they were difficult but through tough love and stern words they all turned out as well as could be expected, they never got into fights though it was in their nature, they got an education superior to most. But towards the end of the fourth year Helen got sick, she fought it off and long as she could but in the middle of their fifth year Helen could not fight any longer and died. Helen had left them money in a will but they never saw any of it because no matter how wonderful and sweet Helen had been to them her children had taken everything and sold the beautiful house that smelled of lavender and they were left with nothing. They had been given an allowance by Helen but they all found that they had little need for it seeing as how Helen spoiled them with anything they asked for, so they had some money saved. And for a few weeks they were okay, they lived in cheap motels sharing a room and eating food cubes, but after awhile the money dried up.



When she meet Murdoc she thought her prayers had been answered by the gods, he wanted to help them, he said that his wife would loved to take in a few strays since their own children had left and that it would be a shame if such cute kids had no where to go. unfortunatly living with Helen made her think the best of people so she saw nothing wrong with this man wanting to help them even if he did look at her strange. So she took her brother's to his house and it was okay for a week. Until he started touching her. Small little touches at first like a hand "accendently" brushing against her chest or bottom, but they soon turned into gropes. She put up with it for a short while and would have continued allowing it because it kept her brothers fed and clothed, but he got bold one night.



 He was some high ranking something or another she had found out through eavesdropping, he never talked about it around them. With his status came a large house, even bigger then Helen's had been, so there were plenty of bedrooms for all of them, though the twins preferred to bunk up with eachother. She her self had one of the master bedrooms, she supposed this was her reward for allowing the touching to go on. One night after she was freshly showered he came into her room, often times when he did so she pretended to be asleep and he would leave. Not that night. He creeped close to her and causally stroked her long auburn hair taking some of it between his fingers and bringing it to his nose to smell, he moaned and then went lower fumbling with her night gown trying to free her breasts, she could no longer fake slumber, a whimper escaped her mouth. He seemed to understand she was now awake and pressed his mouth on hers, he tasted like oranges and beer. She did not stop him from kissing her, he had done it a few times before but he never kissed her like he was kissing her now, his tongue was in her mouth violently probing making her respond, she allowed the assault to continue until he started taking his pants off, she dislodged herself from his mouth and only had enough time to whisper a strangled "no" before he went back to pumping his tongue in her mouth. She wasn't stupid when it came to sex, she'd never done it but she understood what his intentions were and struggled against him, he was trying to take off her clothes. She could not longer take it, this was a good home most of the time, Murdoc's wife was a little batty, but they ate well and had good clothes. She had promised her mother she would protect them with her life if that's what it came too but she never promised her mom she'd get raped for them, she loved them but she couldn't let that happen. She took the knife she hid under her pillow in case something like this were to happen and put it to his throat, all she meant to do was scare him into stopping but with all the movement he was making taking off her clothes the knife  cut through a vain and blood spurted all over her face, he was making a horrible gurgling sound as she stared wide eyed. That was the first time her beast talked to her, it whispered in her head to finish him, then when she didn't readily respond the beast screamed at her saying things like, how dare he touch her, and he deserved it, she found herself listening to the beast and she lifted her knife to finish what she started. She got out of bed quickly and changed her clothes and packed a bag full of all the clothes he had bought her, then she went to Altos's room and roused him from his slumber and told him what had happened and then he too changed and quickly packed a bag. They left for the twins room together she packed all their clothes as he woke them up but sparing them the details of why they had to leave.



They left as soon as they gathered everything they'd need and headed out into the night. News of Murdoc's demise spread like wild fire as did the pictures of her face, turns out the sick bastard had been someone more important then she had first thought and they were offering some serious cash for her capture. They needed to leave and soon.



She had but one friend in all of Helion Prime and her name was Tessa she was a few years older then Sasha but she was her best friend. She went to her because she knew with out a shadow of doubt that she would get her off Helion Prime. She had a ship. Tessa no matter how good of a friend liked money, and that's what she wanted for their passage off the rock. So she paid her a hundred creds and they left. She came to Ganymede with nothing but hope, it was a industrial planet for the most part so she thought it would be easy for her to find work in a factory or something but she soon found out that the only job a women had on this planet was laying down and she had not yet reached that low, Altos had a job for awhile but he got into a fight with his boss and got fired and could not find any work after that. There were three types of people on Ganymede the very rich and the very poor and for a very few the in between, sadly they were the the second. She tried hard to get money any way she could, she even sold most of her things, but soon she had to start stealing. She had some rules though, she never told the boys where she got it, she did suspect however that Altos knew, and she never took anything from anyone who looked like they couldn't live without a few creds or their jewelry. She hated stealing though, and did it only when the boys didn't have any food.



Though her mind was busy remembering how she got to this particular place in her life her eyes where alert and following the women in red, she seemed to be struggling slightly under the weight of her many bags her anger flared again when she saw all the things she had gotten and before she could stop her self she leapt on the women and put a knife to her throat as she huskily whispered in her ear.



" I will not harm you unless you give me a reason to. All I want from you are your jewels and your silence, you scream I cut understand?" the only response was a slight nod and a whimper. She could hear the woman's heart beating frantically in her chest and she could smell her fear, good she thought its good to fear me. Quick as lightning she started removing her many rings and bangles but before she could get all of them off she sensed a change in the woman, she sensed anger and often times anger led to bravery. The woman screamed.