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1 through F › Fast And The Furious, The › Male/Female
Rating:
Adult ++
Chapters:
32
Views:
3,784
Reviews:
7
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
0
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I do not own The Fast and the Furious, nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Mini's Diary
Mini hits the sack around 11pm; she has to be at the clinic before noon. Grabbing her pen, she retrieves her diary from her night dresser drawer. Her diary is her therapist, writing her feelings down is easy, she found it helps her deal with things better...
Dear Diary,
The clerk from the clinic called around 7pm the night, like I need a reminder, but I know it's just her job. Ever since, my mind has been spinning and my heart is racing. No wonder I can't sleep I'm having a fucking anxiety attack. I can't remember the last time I had one of those. Actually I c
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I was about 9 years old and my mom had remarried when I was 5. My day started out pretty shitty. By the time I got to school and my first period class started I had to run out of class straight to the bathroom. I remember voices, some girls from the class above me where in there smoking. I blanked out for most of the panic attack, but remained jittery for the rest of the day. My breathing was heavy, my palms sweating and I'd jump for any little noise. By the age of twelve I couldn't hide it anymore. Weekly I spoke to a school counselor about my "˜problems'. Or what they thought my problems were anyway. The one person I could trust, that would never laugh or judge me was Eva.
We went to different schools but would always meet up after the bell rung, by the train tracks, next to Branch Brook Park. I remember having the biggest crush on her brother Oscar but he was always into older girls and being my best friend's brother made him off limits ~ at least until I got older. I remember Eva's 15th birthday party or "˜Quincianera' in Spanish. Gloria booked this huge hall and all of Eva's family attended along with Lisa and Coco. There I met the cutest boy, Bryan he was 16 ~ a bad boy just like Vince ~ hmm a vicious pattern. Of course I was too shy to approach him but I didn't need to that's what I had friends for. Eva approached him and gave him my phone #, after that we spoke on the phone for hours on end. We started dating, he'd pick me up from school and it was the best relationship ~ I was in love. Until that is, the subject of sex came up. He wasn't a virgin and neither was I, but I couldn't do it, every time we would try I'd freak. We broke up and that's when I realized what was happening to me. My whole life I'd suppressed the memories but the floodgates had been open whole. I confided in Eva and told her everything, from the time I was 5 until the age of 12 my stepfather had been molesting/rapping me in my own room. After I got my first period that's when it stopped.
Eva helped me gather the courage to tell my mother ~ she needed to know what he had done to me. We sat in the living room; my mom, the scum, Eva and me. Slowly I explained everything that happened, tears flowing down my face. Eva held my hand tightly; her own tears streaming down her face. When I was done I looked up to see the anger in my mother eyes, except it wasn't towards him ~ she was mad at me! She called me a liar, she said I was trying to break up her marriage, she said I was jealous ~ can you believe it? Jealous! My voice was gone I couldn't speak, Eva however did all the yelling for me. My ears had gone deaf though, all I could see was his devilish smile ~ he'd was getting away with it. I woke up to hear Eva threatening him "If you ever come any where near her, I'll kill you" is what I remember. Gloria welcomed me into her home. My mother never bothered me again and until this day she's still married to that sick fuck!
Vince can never know the truth about my past. Surely it will drive him away just like it drove Bryan away. I've lived my life in fear I'd turn into my stepfather, into a monster. Vince has to believe I slept with someone else, it's the only way to push him away from this child and me. After tomorrow it won't matter, it'll be done and over with.
To be continued...
Dear Diary,
The clerk from the clinic called around 7pm the night, like I need a reminder, but I know it's just her job. Ever since, my mind has been spinning and my heart is racing. No wonder I can't sleep I'm having a fucking anxiety attack. I can't remember the last time I had one of those. Actually I c
*
***
I was about 9 years old and my mom had remarried when I was 5. My day started out pretty shitty. By the time I got to school and my first period class started I had to run out of class straight to the bathroom. I remember voices, some girls from the class above me where in there smoking. I blanked out for most of the panic attack, but remained jittery for the rest of the day. My breathing was heavy, my palms sweating and I'd jump for any little noise. By the age of twelve I couldn't hide it anymore. Weekly I spoke to a school counselor about my "˜problems'. Or what they thought my problems were anyway. The one person I could trust, that would never laugh or judge me was Eva.
We went to different schools but would always meet up after the bell rung, by the train tracks, next to Branch Brook Park. I remember having the biggest crush on her brother Oscar but he was always into older girls and being my best friend's brother made him off limits ~ at least until I got older. I remember Eva's 15th birthday party or "˜Quincianera' in Spanish. Gloria booked this huge hall and all of Eva's family attended along with Lisa and Coco. There I met the cutest boy, Bryan he was 16 ~ a bad boy just like Vince ~ hmm a vicious pattern. Of course I was too shy to approach him but I didn't need to that's what I had friends for. Eva approached him and gave him my phone #, after that we spoke on the phone for hours on end. We started dating, he'd pick me up from school and it was the best relationship ~ I was in love. Until that is, the subject of sex came up. He wasn't a virgin and neither was I, but I couldn't do it, every time we would try I'd freak. We broke up and that's when I realized what was happening to me. My whole life I'd suppressed the memories but the floodgates had been open whole. I confided in Eva and told her everything, from the time I was 5 until the age of 12 my stepfather had been molesting/rapping me in my own room. After I got my first period that's when it stopped.
Eva helped me gather the courage to tell my mother ~ she needed to know what he had done to me. We sat in the living room; my mom, the scum, Eva and me. Slowly I explained everything that happened, tears flowing down my face. Eva held my hand tightly; her own tears streaming down her face. When I was done I looked up to see the anger in my mother eyes, except it wasn't towards him ~ she was mad at me! She called me a liar, she said I was trying to break up her marriage, she said I was jealous ~ can you believe it? Jealous! My voice was gone I couldn't speak, Eva however did all the yelling for me. My ears had gone deaf though, all I could see was his devilish smile ~ he'd was getting away with it. I woke up to hear Eva threatening him "If you ever come any where near her, I'll kill you" is what I remember. Gloria welcomed me into her home. My mother never bothered me again and until this day she's still married to that sick fuck!
Vince can never know the truth about my past. Surely it will drive him away just like it drove Bryan away. I've lived my life in fear I'd turn into my stepfather, into a monster. Vince has to believe I slept with someone else, it's the only way to push him away from this child and me. After tomorrow it won't matter, it'll be done and over with.
To be continued...