Temple Diaries (Chapter 1)

Obi-wan Kenobi walked purposefully towards the medical ward of the jedi temple. His padawan should've been healed by now and yet he had not been summoned to return to the ward. Something just wasn't right. It wasn't like Anakin to report in when he was instructed and it was out of character for Barriss Offee not to follow a request from a master.

Obi-wan entered the ward. It was completely silent except for his own breathing. He reached out with his feelings and found padawan Barriss Offee in one of the medical exmination rooms. She seemed to be distressed. Walking quietly towards the triage room's small door, Obi-wan punched the control to open it. He noted the window had been made translucent to keep prying eyes from viewing what the healer and patient were doing in the room. It was odd for the type of injuries Anakin had sustained during the interrogation.

Obi-wan entered the room and there he saw Barriss. She sitting on the edge of the table, her hands smoothing the skirt she was wearing. Her face was downturned. Her feelings were heavy. They weighed the room down and Obi-wan could feel the sorrow pressing on his chest. He labored to breathe through it.

"Are you okay?" Obi-wan asked. Barriss jumped at the sound of his voice. Although she was a jedi, she had been so wrapped up in her own emotional state, she didn't hear or feel him enter the room. She should've been more mindful of her surroundings.

"I'm fine," Barriss said turning to face Obi-wan. "Can I help you Master Kenobi?"

Obi-wan regarded the female. She seemed small and distant. Her violet eyes peered at him, but he saw they were red-rimmed from crying. She had been very upset. "Are you sure you are fine?" Kenobi asked again. He didn't want to push her to speak, but he could tell when something was wrong.

"Is this about Anakin?" Barriss asked, her voice catching on his name. She didn't want to let on to Obi-wan that his padawan had violated her in such a harsh manner. He would surely be punished if his master found out. "He is healed and has left," Barriss said in her strongest voice. Although, it wasn't convincing, even to herself.

Obi-wan shifted around Barriss and sat on the examining table next to her. "You aren't such a good liar," Obi-wan said looking at her calmly. "I sense you are in pain."

Barriss hefted herself from the table and rested against the wall. She didn't want to talk about this with him. Obi-wan Kenobi was one of the most respected masters in the temple. He would not take kindly to knowing what his padawan had done to her. Barriss had let him. She was just as guilty as Anakin.

"I assure you, Master Kenobi," Barriss said very formally. "I'm fine."

She wasn't very convincing. Obi-wan noted her almost shy demeanor. Offee was normally a bubbly and bright spot in the force. Obi-wan neither felt the joy or saw it in her now. He reached out to touch her on the shoulder. It was the fatherly instinct in him which wanted to make sure she was alright. Although he had never had a father, that he knew, sometimes he felt as though he was close to being Anakin's father. Barriss tried to avoid the touch from him. She didn't want another person touching her. She wanted to be left alone. To be by herself, something you didn't always get in the temple.

Finally her eyes brimmed. She couldn't hold herself together, even if she tried. She didn't deserve what Anakin had done to her. She was at no fault. Barriss needed to tell someone. "Anakin ...." Barriss started, but her voice was cut off as she erupted into sobs. Her whole body shook with the power of the sobs. Obi-wan put his arms around her and held her up. She was so close to falling to the floor. Her legs unable to hold her own weight. Barriss leaned into Obi-wan's arms and let herself go.

"What did Anakin do?" Obi-wan asked trying to be heard over the sobs. "What did he do to you?"

Barriss couldn't form the words in her mouth. There was something so wrong about the way they felt on her tongue. The sobs started to subside and she looked up at Obi-wan. How could she tell him that his padawan had taken her physically? He had raped her.

Obi-wan hefted her towards the table and helped her sit. "Now Barriss," he finally said as he helped her wipe her eyes, "you have to tell me. If you don't, who will?"

Barriss took a long deep breath and shuddered, a final remenant of the sobs which had comsumed her body only moments before.

"He had sex with me," Barriss finally said after a long silence. She had worded her response very carefully.

"That is not forbidden," Obi-wan said standing in front of Barriss, his hands on either side of her.

"I didn't want to," Barriss said. "He forced me and there is something very dark inside of him. I feel as though I've seen it first hand."

Barriss waited. She let the information sink in. Obi-wan sighed and shook his head. This was not the first time Anakin had forced himself on the opposite sex, but Obi-wan thought it would've stopped by now. They had many talks about the appropriate way to handle women. He felt sorry for Barriss. She had always been a good friend of Anakin and now he had raped her.

"I'm so sorry Barriss," Obi-wan said genuinely. She didn't deserve this treatment. Obi-wan looked into her violet eyes. "Was this the first?"

It was an awkward question for him to ask of someone who was not his own padawan. He needed to know though. Barriss blushed slightly at the question.

"It was," Barriss said softly and sniffed. She felt the tears welling within her again.

Obi-wan sighed again. His padawan would need to be severely punished for another transgression. Would this pattern of behavior ever end?

"I assure you all experiences you have will not be the same," Obi-wan said and wiped the newly formed tears from under her eyes. He peered into her eyes.

Barriss leaned closer to him. He smelled intoxicating. The perfect blend of musk and freshly laundered robes. She wrapped her hands around his neck and settled her cheek against his chest. Barriss felt safe. Comfortable and safe in the arms of Jedi Master Obi-wan Kenobi.

Obi-wan wrapped his arms around Barriss and let her nestle against his chest. He wanted to make her feel as safe as possible with him. After what Anakin had done, Obi-wan felt it was his responsibility to right his wrongs. Would he have to do that forever? He wasn't sure. There may come a time when he wasn't able to change what Anakin had done.

Barriss stayed there, listening to his heart beating inside his chest. She felt as though she could stay there. She was not afraid. She was a jedi and they did not fear, but the anguish she felt, was foreign to her. As though a part of her had died when Anakin had taken pleasure from her body. She wasn't sure how to deal with those emotions. That was what she feared most.

Obi-wan held her, waiting for her to tell him when she was ready to be released. She clung to him. He remembered back to those times when Anakin had been scared by a nightmare and had clung to Obi-wan in the night. Afraid of what might be lurking in the dark of his room. Unable to shake the feeling someone was there. It was the same feeling now from Barriss. She was clinging to him for comfort and support.

Obi-wan finally pulled away from Barriss and looked at her. He tried to smiled to reassure her, but he knew it wasn't coming out as it should. Obi-wan had trouble masking the fact that he was upset at his padawan. Barriss looked small and frail there sitting in the examining room.

"Better?" Obi-wan whispered. He could make all the pain go away with a quick wipe of her mind. The force allowed him the luxury of altering memories. He didn't like to do it to another force-user though. Sometimes it was harder and could cause extreme trauma.

"I think so," Barriss said, her eyes locked with his. She had never noticed the color of them. Although she had seem Master Kenobi many times in her life. He was still a mystery to her. Someone to be revered, yet now he seemed so close, so easy to talk to. Barriss shook her head. What was she thinking?

Obi-wan lowered his arms from around Barriss and folded them over his chest. He suddenly felt very uncomfortable in his own skin. Something he hadn't felt in years. Barriss' eyes seemed to be sizing him up, in a way he wasn't comfortable with in the least.

"Well," Obi-wan said uncomfortablly. "I should find Anakin, he has alot of explaining to do."

Obi-wan turned to leave, but Barriss grabbed his wrist before he could get very far. Her hands were trembling. "Please," she finally said softly. "Don't leave."

Obi-wan turned around, surprise apparent on his features. She wanted him to stay, but why. Peering into her violet eyes, Obi-wan moved closer to her. His hands traced the side of her face. Her skin was smooth beneath his touch. She smiled at the touch. Barriss was thankful he was there to comfort her. She leaned towards him, tilting her face up, she searched for his lips with hers. He didn't move, letting her come closer.

Then it happened, their lips met and Obi-wan gathered her in his arms. She felt small and fragile, but the want in his body was apparent. His pants strained around the arousal he felt. Why her? He could have his choice of anyone in the temple, but why Barriss. She was almost half his age. He shouldn't be taking advantage of her. Especially not after what Anakin had done to her. He pushed the thoughts from his mind and enjoyed her lips pressed to his.

He couldn't help himself. Obi-wan kissed her deeply, begging Barriss to let him explore her delicate mouth with his tongue. Barriss sighed. It was a content sigh which made Obi-wan more comfortable with pursuing pleasure with her. His lips never left hers, but he used the force to lock the door so no one could intervene in their time together.

"Are you sure?" Obi-wan asked when their lips had parted. He didn't want to take advantage of her as Anakin had. Barriss nodded and grasped the collar of his tunic and pulled him back to kiss him yet again. Her tongue parted his lips and lingered inside his mouth momentarily before intertwining with his in a dance of passion. Barriss' fingers gripped at the tunic making sure Obi-wan's lips did not leave hers.

Obi-wan loosened his belt, his lips still pressed tightly against Barriss'. Her hands moved to help him. Her fingers fumbled with the buckle as she finally released it and it fell to the floor with a thud. Taking it one step further, Barriss untied the pants he was wearing and began working her hand into the front of them. There was just enough room for her to touch him. Her hand moving deftly over his swelling member.

Obi-wan moaned. The sound was squelched by the passionate kisses he was sharing with Barriss. Obi-wan pushed her skirt up, exposing her slender legs. His hands traced the outline of her legs and then he ran his hand between her thighs. Their lips parted and Obi-wan gasped for breathe. He wanted to tear the clothes from her body. Calming himself, he moved more slowly, parting her thighs with his hands and easing his fingers into the spot to rub her nub.

Barriss gasped with excitement which turned into a low moan. She leaned close to Obi-wan's ear. She wanted him to hear the excitement he brought her. Obi-wan's member stiffened even further as her hand stroked it. He wanted her and she, in turn, wanted him.

Barriss moved to lean over the examination table, her backside facing Obi-wan. He pushed her skirt further up on around her waist and pulled his pants down to his knees. Slowly, Obi-wan entered her. His movements slow at first, finally culminating in a quickened pace which buried him deeper into her wet folds. Barriss moaned her body bucking wildly at the pleasure she felt from him entering her.

Obi-wan grimaced in satisfied pleasure as he spent himself into the tightness of Barriss' body. His body convulsed with the after effects of the orgasm. His breathing began to return to normal as he pulled up his leggings.

Barriss turned to regard the master. Her face was flushed with the passion they had just exchanged.

"Thank you," she said. Obi-wan nodded and unlocked the door to leave.

"Anakin will be punished," Obi-wan said. He knew just what to do to his padawan.