I Remember Padme

If you’re expecting more sex from this story then I’m sorry but there is to be no more sex scenes in this story. This is not due to reviews- it was the way I had always planned it for this story.

I was a bit worried about posting this chapter as I received my first bad review on this story but hey out of 23 reviews, one isn’t too bad and I cant please everyone, right? So this one is dedicated to all the loyal and devoted readers who have kept reading this and have kept their faith in this story.

Chapter 5- The Visions of Betrayal

The days flew by after Anakin and Padme left. I didn’t think about her much- I couldn’t. Despite my angst, I had a job to do. I first went to my old friend Dex who told me about the sabre dart that had been taken out of the assassin. He confirmed it came through the planet Kamino. I have travelled the galaxy many times in my years as a Jedi apprentice and a Master and I have never heard of the place, let alone set foot there. I checked the archives but there was no sign of the planet. It was there staring at that screen that I had the first vision.

The screen slowly vanished and there they were, in front of me as clear as the nose on my face. She was out of her refugee and was wearing a gown. Oh, she was so beautiful with that free flowing dress and her hair piled up like that. I am embarrassed that I got a serious erection from seeing her like that. They were walking along a path by the lake and she was soon leaning on a balcony staring at the lake telling Anakin about how she used to swim to the island in the middle of the lake. I remembered hearing that story years ago in the few weeks we had together when we first made love.

In a way, I envied her for that. Although I’m proud to be a Jedi and would never give it up, I sometimes wondered what it would be like if I had never had the Force or if I had never been discovered with this gift and taken away from my planet. I do not even know what planet I was from and I wonder would my childhood been as simple, as fun and as innocent as it was if I had not been taken away from my family.

And it was there on that balcony that I saw it happen. He said something softly and started to stroke her arm. She turned and looked at him and then they kissed. My heart sank. I couldn’t believe it. Why was he kissing her? Or was she kissing him? Was she enjoying it? And then as quickly as it started, it stopped. She pulled away from him saying she wished she hadn’t thought of that and stared back into the lake. It was then the vision vanished and the screen shone back into my face. I didn’t notice. I was still taking in what had just happened. Was it real? Or was it a figment of my imagination or my own paranoia?

“Master Kenobi, can I help you?”

I immediately woke up from my daydream at the sound of Jocasta Nu. I stood up and said that I was trying to find the planet of Kamino. With a confused look on her face, she said she had never heard of the planet either but she still looked at the Archives without success. She sighed and said that I must have been given the wrong information. And with that, I took my leave.


Many say that Yoda is the wisest of all the Jedi and that youngsters have extraordinary minds. I truly underestimated this until I went to find Yoda to ask about him about the missing planet. I felt embarrassed being there for several reasons. One was that he chuckled when I said I couldn’t find Kamino. I know he was trying to make a joke out of it to show he has humour but I still felt a bit embarrassed. The other came when a youngling came up with the idea that the reason Kamino wasn’t there is that someone had in fact deleted it. It just seemed wrong that I did not figure out something a small child could.

But then again, this could be due to the fact that deep down in my mind, I could still Padme and Anakin kissing. But a more logical reason could be that children tend to be simpler in their answers whilst we adults tend to complicate the matter more than we should. If everyone had the mind of a child, the galaxy wouldn’t be in such a political mess.

Anyway, it was on the way to find the missing planet that I had the second vision. Like with the first vision, the environment around me faded out and then I could see Anakin and Padme by a fireplace. They were talking but for some reason, I felt that there was a tense atmosphere around them. Maybe it was my paranoia taking over my rationality but I believed that the vision was real, as was the first one. It just seemed to be too realistic to be a figment of my own imagination.

I felt anger and fury as I saw Anakin move towards Padme. He was getting too close for my liking. She kept moving away from him but he kept moving closer to her. I felt lover’s jealously seeing him getting so close to her. As he spoke, I could not believe the words I was hearing but I shouldn’t really have been surprised. I felt that he loved her as much as I did and the more he talked, the more she seemed to refuse. Suddenly, the vision went as quickly as the first one did and the stars and the planets came back into view around me as clear as they were before the vision.

The stars flew past me but I did not notice. All I kept thinking about was the visions I had been having. Why was I having them? Were they meant to mean anything? My fears were slowly growing that something was going to happen between them and not even the fact she was trying to avoid him didn’t make a difference. I should have been happy because it meant she loved me more than him but I knew the look on her face all too well.

It happened two years ago, during my break from missions. Padme was free from her Senator duties as well so we spent the day together in her apartment. It was too dangerous for us to be outside together. Anyway, we were cuddling and kissing on her couch and then her door opened immediately. One of her handmaidens had arrived earlier than we had thought. As quick as a flash, we broken away from our hold from each other but it were too late- the handmaiden had seen us in each other’s arms. I could tell she is suspected something because she had a sly smile on her face and asked us what was going on.

Before I could think of what to say, Padme stepped in with an explanation. “I’ve been under so much stress with my duties, Dorme. Master Kenobi was simply comforting me.” She turned to face me. “Isn’t that Master?”

“Yes”, I quickly replied.

It was that look on her face that was so similar to that she displayed as she told Anakin that she couldn’t live a lie. It was the look of unease, as if she wanted to express her love to the whole of the galaxy but couldn’t because of duty.

This thought left me at unease.



Despite my uncertainty, she was the one that kept me sane as I was held in the force field being interrogated by Count Dooku. He was using one of my few weaknesses against me. To hear the name Qui Gon spoken by that traitor burnt a hole into me. To hear that he would have left the Council…… I know that Dooku was trying to play with my emotions to get me to join but still it hurt to hear my old Master being talked to in this way.

As I was suspended all alone in the force field, I prayed for her to be safe. What in the hell was she doing on Tatooine with him? Had Anakin’s dreams got the better of him and he went to search for his mother? I’ve known the feeling about dreams. Late at night, as I was dreaming of Padme, I urged to be with her even though I knew I couldn’t.

I could see her in my mind through the Force field. She was coming with me. She was urging Anakin that they need to save me but I could hear her voice in my head.

I’m coming for you, Obi. My love.

The fact that I heard the words “my love” soothed me to no end. She still loved me and the feeling was good.


The good feeling didn’t last long. It might have been the fact I was tied to a pole waiting to be fed to whatever vicious creatures my captors had in mind. Or it could be due to the fact that I saw the truth, not in a vision but in front of my own eyes.

They had been captured on their rescue mission and now they were near the entrance of the stadium, waiting to meet the same fate as me. I could see them in the dark and they were trying to reassure each other. And then I heard the words I had feared she would say to him:

“I love you. I truly deeply love you.”

And then they kissed. They parted as the light shone on them when the carriage moved but I saw them. My heart sank. I gave them the dirtiest look I could think of. It didn’t matter now. I knew it was over.


To be continued……….