Thin Air

I rested wearily against the railing, the negotiations had gone smoother than most of my negotiations went. Night air warm and permeated with the scent of blooming things washed over me. It was nice here, it was a beautiful world after all.

"Sir, we're ready to head out." Cody. Always, Cody, I hoped he had managed to at least forgive me for what had happened in my rooms. I didn't deserve to be forgiven I just wished for it, so that he could move on.

I had realized that in my stupidity I hadn't thought of what people I could save as a Jedi. I hadn't considered that while I didn't deserve to live, others did. People I could save, who might not be saved if I wasn't around.

"Thank you, commander." I stood and wobbled as a wave of lightheadedness washed over me. Cody took a step forward a hand reaching out to me before he thought better of such an action. His hesitation hurt, I knew why of course. I'd been pushing him away, praying that he would be able to move on from the wreck I'd become.

"Fine, just ready for bed is all." Cody nodded; "So long as you actually sleep." I snorted; "I know better these days than to ignore sleep." Because it would bring them to me again and I couldn't deal with that. Mostly because it would hurt, knowing I had failed both of them, failed Anakin, Ahsoka, the Jedi in general, and myself all in one fell swoop.

A look ghosted over Cody's face that I couldn't describe, what exactly was he thinking right now? "Sir, permission to speak freely?" I nodded, whatever was on his mind...Who was I to deny it? "I, I hope that one day we could be friends again...I mean if we ever were. I just. I miss you." I reeled at the words so softly spoken.

Before I could reply to that before I could really even think about it a rather harried-looking clone came out to us. "Sirs, there has been a communication, we're being asked to investigate a possible separatist attack here." Cody stiffened his eyes narrowing at the news. That wasn't the kind of news we needed right now and I was tired, well no rest for the weary it seemed.

Separatist had definitely found their way onto this planet and had taken control of several buildings in the capital. A terrible sign since I didn't have many clones on my side, still this had been a terrible idea. I shouldn't have tried to come here by myself, I hadn't been a match for so many droids or the drugs they had hit me with.

Being separated from Cody had been a mistake as well, I always knew I could count on him if he was at my back during a fight and we had managed to be split up, now here I was chained and being guarded as we waited for Force knew what. I longed to lower my arms, but seeing as they were chained above me there was nothing I could do about the ache I was starting to feel more intensely than before.

They had stripped me down to just my leggings, making certain I had no weapons with no doubt to linger in their minds. The air wasn't cold at the very least, this world really didn't have any cold region, at least not for me. I really could have done better if I hadn't been so out of my mind, honestly, what had I been thinking?

I supposed I hadn't really been thinking at all, Cody had made noises of irritation, of non-consent for my plans, and yet I had brushed him off and now look at what had happened? I'd gotten myself captured and there was very little chance that anyone would save me.

"Your attack failed Jedi." I twitched, surprise causing my chest to freeze for a split second. I looked up and spotted a man, he gave me a mock bow and a sly grin spread across his face; "I didn't realize any of you Jedi would actually be quite so handsome."
That didn't bode well for me now, did it? "I suppose most people just assume that a Jedi looks plain and boring." The little shrug I gave with the combination of my words seemed to irritate the man.

The separatist snarled and grabbed my face, sour breath making me wince; "You haven't the faintest clue just how much trouble you are in, I will break you. You will become my pet, my plaything to do what I want."
I couldn't show how much that actually frightened me, did this man intend on raping me? Or just making me his slave in another manner? I didn't want whatever it was he was saying he'd do to me.

The man slid around me, circling me several times before he stopped at my back. His breath was heavy on my neck as he leaned closer, my heartbeat rocketed upwards as he stood there. Soft fingers traced my spine, a shiver I couldn't hold back sliding down my body. "By the time I'm done with you, you'll love it."

And my leggings were pulled down to my thighs, exposing me to cool air. I gritted my teeth even as a whine of denial left my lips. The thing masquerading as a man chuckled, "Quite beautiful, I can't wait to hear your cries." I needed to get out of this situation somehow. "You don't want to do this, if my commander finds me like this, he'll kill whoever hurt me." It was true, Cody would murder this man, simply because he cared so much for me rather than the fact I was his general.

Cool fingers draped over my lower back, a thumb caressing my tailbone. "Is your Commander fucking you? Is that why he'd kill someone because he doesn't want anyone else to fuck you?" My face burned at the words, Cody...Did he want to be close to me like that? He and Rex did care about me greatly and I knew that Cody would come for me, but there was no way Cody could possibly want a failure like me...Not like that.