Enough

Title: Enough
Author: HieisShadow
Summery: Is enough ever really enough?
Notes: This is a short free verse that I wrote on the last few moments of Padme's life.


The pain is enough to kill, yet it won't.
I wish it would for I would no longer hurt.
My heart is breaking apart,
I'm choking on the pieces that find their way to my throat.
Yet, I look up, and it seems that the one I truly trusted,
The one that I have so much love for,
Is the one that's making me choke.
I can't believe it.
I won't believe it.
What I will believe is that its my shattered pieces of heart that's killing me.
The heart that I was born with.
This heart...
is the one that's killing me.
The heart that kept me alive from the day my life began,
Is now killing me.
Not the lover that use to dwell in this muscle.
Not the lover that opened up the door to it,
And hid so secretly inside,
Making it a temple for our love.
The love that use to shine so bright,
Yet hidden in shadows, is no longer there.
Only anger, hurt, and body breaking pain.
So much pain.
I curse this heart I have been given
I curse the weakness I gave into,
And I curse the being that helped me give in to that weakness.
Love is what we spoke of.
Love is what kept us coming back for more.
The love moved quickly into touching...
And into a more intimate touch..
Touching that sent shivers down my spine.
Licking and sucking that made me wet and begging for more.
Sliding in and out of my body at a slow and agonizing pace,
Leaving me light headed and crazed.
Such strong passion that left us gasping for one another,
Trying to find extra oxygen in each other.
But that love is what drove us apart.
Love that was so strong it broke...
Not even the strongest rope can be pulled, yanked, forced and burned...
Without it breaking in half.
And after that half,
More threads come undone and break.
Friends become enemies,
Enemies become masters,
And all that's left are those who kept true to their convictions.
The pure and the innocent,
Left to deal with what was our mistake,
Because it did destroy us in the end.
Love that we so freely spoke of.
Love that we knew was pure and true.
Our love was all we needed.
We needed it like the plants need the rain.
Sucking it down until we no longer thirst...
But love isn't quenchable.
And love is not enough.
My body has had enough pain,
Enough pain that's split me in two,
Enough tears to fill an ocean,
Enough betrayal to break a Jedi.
I've had Enough.
But is enough...enough?
One last request to a dear friend.
One last look at the one who is truly a loyal Jedi,
And I'm broken.
The heart that kept me alive,
Has killed me.
Pieces shatter and fall into all the dark spaces,
And I've had enough.
But is enough ever really enough?
My sight fades to black as I remember one last thing...
I forgot to wear my japor snippet...
And I drift away into welcoming darkness.




The End