"Work in Process"

My first fic ever, a virgin at this so be gentle!
Summary cotinuation:

Being tricked that she is responsible for the pereishment of hundreds of lives, the disappearance of immortal blood, and the weakening of magic; sarah makes her self subservient to the fae. giving(gies) herself mind and body to attone what she believes she has wrought. After 3 years of servitude sarah is given as a cruel gift. For what else do you give the Heir to the undamaged Seelie Throne: High Prince Jareth, King of the Goblins. Will Jareth forgive her his broken heart and help Sarah reclaim herself? Plagued with doubts will Sarah ever believe herself worthy of anyhting but pain and humliation, will she be able see through the lies that have been her sins for so long?


Here is a taste. Tell me what you think. Is it worth continuing. no flames please, i dont handle confrantaion well. and yes i know i need a beta, any volenteers?

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He Never mentioned my aura would forever hold the mark of the underworld. that they would be able to find me. Know what I did.

He never mentioned that there were so many others like him. No, not like him. But Fae. Dark and light to his gray. No one would ever be like him. Not to me.

He never truly showed me the cruelty that one could truly cause another.
But I know now. I've see it.

And I cant blame him for my predicament. I deserve this. This attonment for my sins. For eternity I will pay for the damage I have wrought. The devesation my careless words caused.

9 years ago I selfishly wished my brother away. That poor child with no understanding of what I had done let alone why. And to get get Toby home I would not stop.

I was insistent that I was the harmed party that my way was the right.
I know now that what The Goblin King really wanted was me. Sire says he does not now why royalty would want such filth as me. Truly I dont know either.
I could have gotten my brother home safely if only if I had not thought of myself as well.

My focuse then, though temptation nearly washeed away the resolve, was I had to set right my wrong, I had to be the hero. If only I had know how much more wrong I would cause.

And I did reach the end. I did get Yoby home. But at such a price, one which I could have avoided. And in the process I claimed a falsehood.

"The King of the Goblins had fallen in love with the girl, and he had given her certain powers."
"My kingdom as great ... you have no power over me"

My sire has taught and told me much in these last 3 years.

For 6 years I lived oblivious to the damage I caused this underground Land of Magic. My careless words bringing a once magical land to devestated ruin. My friends, my dreams gone because of my arrogance and ignorance.

My Sire has shown me the malignance my voice has brought. I am not to speak unless in answer to his questions.

Sire has shown me what could have been if I was a selfless girl, worthy. I could have traded my self for Toby, but being the tainted soul that Sire has made me see I truly am, I will pay my neverending debt; to this land, to these people, so that I may save face for the man who offered a girl-child her every dream, only to have her mouth raize his whole reality.

I am a slave. Bound by my word to repay this world, I will do whatever--whenever--however for the etirety of time and effort as my human self will survive.