Painless

Now it was his turn. “I have to go… check… uh… somethi

My eyes burned from the unwanted tears. I’m not sure who was more upset by them. “Something?”

“Yes… with the ship. Something with the ship.” Very vague, Jack.

“Okay.” Why fight? It’s not like this would have been good for either of us. “I’ll come with you. Just give me a second.”

I took a few moments to pull myself together, the feelings I dared to have about the encounter were lost. Or I hide them somewhere.

“You don’t have to…” Jack trailed off into a seemingly awkward silence, already having distanced himself from me.

So much for comfort. “I need some fresh air. You where going on deck, right?”

I continued to make myself more presentable, my erection completely lost. Jack’s predicament was less desirable. “I… uh… need to take care of something first.”

You wouldn’t have to if you had just kept doing what you were. “Alright. Do you need any help?” That should make things more difficult. One could say harder.

You are such a bastard.

It’s possible. I don’t remember if my parents were married when I was born.

Would you stop taking everything so literally?!

No, it annoys you, and that amuses me.

Listen boy, don’t make me come out there.

I’m so scared. Trembling really. Can’t you tell?

Sarcasm does not suit you.

You’re just saying that because you can’t think of anything else.

I’m warning you…

What? Are you going to punch me? Please don’t. You’re bodiless attack would be quite painful. I can tell by the big muscles you don’t have.

Just you wait.

I’ll be sure to.

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Jack had come back a few minutes later, obviously flustered by his ‘activities’. I’m sure he would have taken me up on the offer to help him, but something else was bothering him.

I’ll take the bait.

“What is it?”

I was irritated, that’s how the words left my mouth. By now we had reached the deck. Jack had forgotten that he was supposed to be doing ‘something’. Like I believed him to begin with.

“It’s nothing.” Hiding things from me isn’t nice. Especially after the cruel joke you just played on me. That’s the last time you get me all hot and bothered.

I highly doubt that.

You shut up. No one asked you.

Like there are other people talking to me.

I wouldn’t know.

“Jack, don’t lie to me.” This comment alone could halt all of our conversations. I never can tell with this man.

“It’s just…”

He sighed, looking off the side of the ship. He watched as the waves rolled past, as the water became darker and lighter with the changing depths.

“Jack, tell me.” Games. Always games.

“I… I don’t want to hurt you.” Oh, good job genius.

“You didn’t want to hurt me? Hurt me? What the hell do you think you just did?” Io tio tired of this. It gets so redundant.

I will now watch on as you have a stuttering fit. Yes, that’s right. Go ahead. “I… I… it’s just that… w-w-w-w-well, damn it. Forget it.” That’s it?! That’s all I get?

“Fuck you Jack.”

I walked away, knowing I wouldn’t be able to hide from him. He knows this ship better than anyone else does. I settled for finding a place on deck out of his view. At least I could be outside.

Well? Clean up or ship out?

There is nothing wrong with me.

Oh no, nothing at all. You are perfectly normal.

Sarcasm doesn’t suit you either.

That’s okay. It doesn’t bother me.

At least not when you are the one doing it.

Well of course.

I can’t take these games anymore.

So leave. It’s not that hard, trust me. I told you, you are hurting them. They are hurting you. Just put a stop to it once and for all.

It’s not that easy.

Yes. Yes it is.

You do realize that when I’m gone, you’ll be gone too?

I wouldn’t suggest it if I hadn’t considered the consequences.

“Okay.”

I whispered, surprised to feel relieved at the decision. It was then that I noticed the ship approaching us.

Oh shit.

“Jack!”

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Jack ran to my side of the ship, fear in his eyes. He looked me over before realizing that something had caught my attention.

“What the…? Why is no one watching?! They are going to get my ship blown to pieces! My baby!” Yes, your baby. How sweet.

“Shouldn’t we notify the crew?” Stop getting sidetracked captain.

Jack glanced at me quickly, throwing me a look of appreciation for the wake up call. He gathered the crew, alerting them of the danger. It wasn’t long before the other ship caught up with us. Jack had allowed it to. He said it would be best to face this head on, no surprises.

No surprises my ass.

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The unknown ship had fired without warning, knocking most of us off of our feet. Regaining our positions, we prepared to fight back. The initial battle was short lived, the other ship had somehow managed to get close enough for its crew to come onto the Black Pearl.

Hand to hand combat ensued while a few gunshots were heard around us. It wasn’t long before there was little left of the crew. I probably should have been a little unsettled by the pleasure I got from slicing the vermin’s’ throats.

“Anna Maria! What’s the men’s status?”

I was startled at the seriousness Jack conveyed.

“A few of the new ones ‘re dead, most of the rest have non-fatal wounds. Better then I expected.” I feel so much better now.

Sarcasm

Oh? Because, I wasn’t sure.

I was barely able to see Jack lunge in front of me, impaling the man that had evaded my vision. I looked at him, rather irritated at the lack of trust that I wouldn’t get myself killed. The man grasped onto the blade of Jack’s sword, completely taking him off guard and tripping Jack. The impaled man arched his sword, aiming for Jack’s heart.

“Oh like hell you do!”

I jumped forward, knocking the man flat. Struggling with him, I was overturned. He straddled me, pulling out a smaller blade from his belt.

Brings back memories, no?

“GET OFF!” I struggled as much as my position would allow me, but the other man overpowered me. It was as if everything had slowed down as the blade came plunging towards my chest. I didn’t know what to do.

Yes! This is it, this is what you wanted! I’ll be free!

“What?!” I turned on my side, twisting the man off of me. Without thinking, I grabbed his hand that held the blade and turned it towards him, using all of my weight to push it deep inside of him. The man became limp as a few blood filled gurgles left his lips. There was no sign of movement after that.

“Bloody hell! What do you mean you’ll be free?!”

No, I didn’t mean that…

“You tried to trick me!”

I knew I was yelling out loud, but I couldn’t help it. At that point, there was no reason to stop being verbal.

I just wanted what was best for you.

“You were thinking about yourself! You couldn’t care less what happens to me! You stupid piece of shit. I should have known. You can suffocate where you are for all I care. Don’t ever speak to me again.”

You seem to think you have a choice about that. Well you don’t. There is nothing you can do about it.

“You conniving little bastard. I’ll ignore you. I swear, I’d kill you if I could.”

But you can’t kill me, and you can’t ignore me.

“You will not win. I refuse to let you.”

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The thing about trust is that you can’t give it to just anyone, not even when you think that person is the closest thing you have to a friend. With trust, love can come. I don’t know whom I trust anymore. People always hurt me, I let them. I know better, but it happens anyway.

Should I stop trusting, or just give up trying to find love?

Is there a difference?
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A/N: For me, that can be considered a long chapter. That’s sad considering it took up only four pages in Word. Seriously, I have no clue where this story is going. Not a clue. I’m just letting it write itself. I am glad that I am not the only one that wants to be a gay man. Woo!

Hmm, my language is getting pretty bad in this, no? I can’t help it. I hope it doesn’t ruin the story. Of course, you must take into consideration that I had to restrain myself a lot to put as little as I did in.
Smacks self * Bad bad self. Hmm, spanking.
* Mind wanders off with Jack and Will *
*Waves goodbye to mind for a few days * Well, that’s not coming back for a while.


Frankenmuth: I’ll try to look at that link soon, but I’m having a hard enough time getting this sight to load. Ah, sexy sexy men.

Datiye: My gaydar over does itself sometimes. Apparently, I think everyone is gay. Heh. Everyone should be bisexual. It would make so much sense and even more fun. So, did I trick you? I’m not sure. As for the site you suggested a few sections back, I took a look at it and realized it was only for anime.
* Shrugs *

ElvenEyes: There’s not supposed to be alcohol in cookies? Damn it. Oh well * does it anyway *. My characters need to be more naughty. Yes, I need more sexual innuendoes. I got a few in this chapter, but there really should be more. That is what makes a good fanfic after all.

Seraphina: AH! Too many questions! Heh, unfortunately for you, I don’t know the answers to these questions just yet (from both review thingies). As for getting your email, I didn’t. I checked my spam folder and it isn’t in there either. * Cries * I want to post this somewhere else too damn it! Make me get your mail! Gah, so frustrating.