Painless

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This is for the best. I know I can’t become what they want me to be, so I’ll do this for you. You say our time wasn’t meaningless. I wonder if I can believe you. I’m trying. Too hard this time, so I lie and wait. Your looks have lost their sincerity. The pain you gave me is far worse than what I’ve had before, and that’s saying a lot.

So I apologize.

As we drift away, I only hope these memories will be forgotten, if only so that you can move on. They will never leave me, I’m stuck in this spot forever.

I hope you accept this, I know you are better than you want me to see. I just wish we could have made amends. Maybe we would have found a way.

I just wanted to say,

Better luck next time.

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As I looked over the letter I had written to Jack, I couldn’t help but to wonder how he would react. Would he be upset, or would he feel relieved? If it turns out to be the last of the two, I don’t want to be here to find out.

We needed to find a port to settle into for a few days while we took care of the wounded. We had already given the fallen members of our crew a proper burial at sea. As for the men from the other ship, we were less gentle. Although we had managed to keep one alive, the stubborn man refused to talk and is now waiting out his fate somewhere in the belly of the ship.

My plan would seem haphazard to most, but it makes sense to go this way. I’ll have to be careful from now on.

It won’t be much longer anyway.

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“Will? Has anyone seen Will?” Jack scanned the deck for me, not knowing I had followed him out.

Anna-Maria’s brow was raised, she didn’t bother to hold back the snort like laugh. “Yes.”

“Well… where is he?” He didn’t even bother pretending to have patience.

Anna-Maria didn’t bother to answer him. Instead she rolled her eyes and walked away.

“Wait! You didn’t answer me.” Jack paused, hoping she would turn around. “I’m the captian.” By this time his voice had turned into a whine.

We definitely do not need to hear that any longer. “Jack.”

He turned around, rather startled by my voice. “Oh. Hello.”

“Was there something you needed me for?” If you can even remember.

He thought for a moment before answering. “Yes. We will reach port in a few hours. Was there anything you wanted to do?”

Not with you. “Yes, but don’t worry. I’ll be back before long.”

Jack opened his mouth, trying to form words. “… No, I meant… I mean… if you wanted… you should have someone with you… I thought we could…”

I ruined that for you, didn’t I? “I thought it would be a nice change if I could go out on my own.”

His face became more stern, losing some of the confusion that had just overtaken him. “That is not a good idea. After the ‘episode’ you had after killing that man, I think it is safe to say that you shouldn’t be alone for a while.”

Fine. Shove that in my face. “But I’ve been fine since then.” Okay, I’m lying.

“It would be best not to chance it.”

“I’ll bring Gena with me then. Is that all right with you… Mom?” Try to say no. Really.

Jack narrowed his eyes, murmuring something that sounded a lot like ‘smart ass’. “If I was your mother, I would have given you a good spanking by now.”

Not a good move, pirate. “I’m up for it if you are.” Though, I’d rather be doing the spanking.

If it was possible, I thought I could see the man blush through the facial hair and tanned skin. “That’s not what I meant.”

“You shouldn’t tease.”

The remark had been more about the other day than the current conversation. I frowned in acknowledgement to the slight cringe Jack gave.

So he does know what I’m talking about. This could work. “It’s not nice to string people along like that.”

“Will…” His voice held a tone of warning.

“And you wonder why I don’t want to go into town with you.” I can’t hold all of these comments in forever.

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It had been a few hours since Gena and I had ventured into the small town. I had little doubt that Jack had found the letter by now. After explaining my plan to Gena, we decided to have a small going away meal at one of the taverns. She was not happy with my decision, but knew that she would be unable to stop me.

She voiced her fears about the humming and the Voice. I explained to her that they where gone, though I neglected to add that it takes almost everything I have to keep them at bay. I just had to be on my own, she understood that.

I left it to her to answer any of Jack’s questions that she could.

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As we walked back to the ship, we knew we weren’t alone. We were being followed. The men caught up with us rather quickly and had held me back as they looked over Gena.

“Nice, very nice.” The slurring voice complimented Gena. Looking at me, he gave the same approving grunt.

“Let us go. Please.” Why do I bother trying?

“Why should we?” The drunken men nodded as if agreeing, though I wasn’t quite sure to what.

“Because I asked nicely?” This isn’t going to work.

“No.” Short and to the point. Not the answer I wanted though.

One of the men had stumbled over to Gena and was now sliding his hand down her breeches. She had stopped wearing dresses when she moved onto the ship. It was full of horny pirates after all.

Gena squirmed away, the man rewarding her by hitting her face with a closed fist.

“Stop that! Let her go.” Now I’m playing hero.

“I thought we went through this already.” I felt the air forced out of me as his knee made contact with my stomach. I refused to stop fighting against the strong hold keeping me in place. This earned me a slam into the ally wall.

I’m not sure what that popping noise was.

“Hey! Get yer hands off of them!” Damn it. Anna-Maria.

I looked up to see about ten members of the Black Pearl’s crew running towards us, including their captain. Glancing around, I watched the drunken men flee from the ally. I saw them release Gena as she oddly fell to the ground with a soft thud.

Alex burst out from behind the already visible crewmembers and ran to Gena’s side. “Genevieve, can you get up?” A moment of silence caused me to push myself into a sitting position. “Gena?” Still there was no response. Pulling myself over with one of my arms, the other one had grown quite painful after the contact with the wall, I pushed her hair out of her face.

It was then that I noticed the pool of blood that had seeped out of the gash on her neck.

“This is your fault!” Alex screamed at me, shoving me back down. The pain that erupted in my shoulder was nothing compared to the surprise of tasting blood.

The man had kneed me harder than I had thought. I realized this as I began to hack up the diluted life fluid.

Alex stepped back, not knowing what to do. He stood as still as stone as I turned on my good shoulder to nuzzle my face into Gena’s hair.

She’s already getting could.

I didthinthink of much else as I slipped into a peaceful darkness, passing out from something. I knew they would tell me tomorrow.

I just wish I could have seen this coming. I gave trust and had it ripped away from me again.

Life plays the cruelest jokes on me.

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A/N: I hope you don’t mind that I didn’t warn you that someone was going to die. It was an OC anyway. I didn’t want to give away the surprise.

Now, the next chapter depends on you guys. Yes you. The readers. I want to know how you would feel if I decided to throw a curse into the pile. It would focus mainly on the Voice, but not make the Voice the curse itself. I would explain more, but I don’t want to give too much of the idea away.

Also, spell check insists that I should have used ‘sterner’ as a word. The phrase being ‘more stern’ which would have turned into ‘more sterner’. I refuse to do that. It is idiotic. So nah.

And another thing… the letter to Jack. You aren’t supposed to really know Will’s intentions, though I’m sure most of you have some ideas on it. I’ll get to a full explanation, even if you do know what was meant by it.


Frankenmuth: I’m debating if I should make one of the main characters die, but I’m not too keen with the idea. I like happy endings, but I guess it all depends on how I feel when I reach the end of the story.

Seraphina: I’m not sure how long this could go on for. I don’t feel that it should end yet though. I have some decisions that I have to make about the next sections that might make this longer or cut it a little shorter than I anticipated. I don’t know. As for the links, I think I’ll be posting this over at at least one of the LJ communities, but not until the story is complete. Thanks bunches for them!!

Nephtys: I’m surprised that I was able to write Will’s character so that people are able to relate to him. It makes it easier for the reader to get involved with the story. It makes it a pleasurable experience for all. * Grins *

Serene: I wasn’t sure if I was making another “Will is depressed, oh deary me” kinda fic. I’m glad you think it is unique.

Anon: We need some population control. Now all I need is a sex change and I’ll be set. Because, I want to be a gay guy! * Whines profusely* Though, I wouldn’t mind a little girl on girl action… * Spreads love in naughty ways*


Now that I know what a beta does, do I need one? I don’t know how that works. I was just frolicking merrily on my way and realized that maybe I should. What do ya think?