Never the Same Again

Never the Same Again Part 2

“Oh Lance…harder” Arthur begged as Lancelot kept hitting his spot. Lancelot who was panting as well claimed Arthur’s lips in a passionate kiss even as he increased the speed of his thrusts and stroked Arthur’s erection. Both came shortly after that both panting their bodies covered in sweat.

“Love you” Lancelot said as he settled down next to Arthur resting his head on the others shoulder.

“I love you to my brave knight” Arthur replied running his fingers through Lancelot’s hair. “It is hard to believe that it has been nearly 4 years since we admitted our love”

“Yes it is” Lancelot paused. “Arthur do you not wish to take me to claim me as I have claimed you”

Arthur was silent for a long moment. “There have been times that yes I would like to claim you but we both know that I cannot.”

“But…”

“No Lance, I do not want to cause you any suffering and that is what would happen no matter how careful I would be I would still damage you and the healers said that it would possibly cause permanent damage”

“I see, goodnight Arthur” Lancelot said as he moved away from him and turned over onto his side so his back was facing Arthur.

“Lance…”

“I said goodnight”

Arthur sighed. “Goodnight, Lance” he said softly, not noticing the silent tears that fell down Lancelot’s cheeks.

***
They were on what was to be their last assignment to complete their 15 years of service. Lancelot for the moment was not talking to Arthur who was hurt by the silent treatment. Lancelot knew he would forgive Arthur but not yet.

When they arrived back at their post with the Bishop the knights awaited their release papers. Lancelot had put off for the longest time deciding whither or not to go with Arthur to Rome he loved Arthur with all his heart but he didn’t know if he could do it.

Finally Lancelot sought him out before they were to be given their release papers. “Arthur”

“So you finally decided to speak to me” Arthur said somewhat coldly.

“Arthur I’m sorry for the way I acted. You know I love you and there have been times, many actually where I have wanted to feel you deep inside me, making me yell out and scream your name as you bring me to completion. I know I will never know you in that way although I am thankful that because of what happened we are now together but I also curse what happened for taking away the one thing I have always wanted but now can never have”

“Lancelot, I’m sorry” Arthur said walking over and pulling Lancelot into his arms and kissed him. “Come it is time to gain our release from this place.” Lancelot nodded and together they went to the meeting hall. As the Bishop spoke and said that he wanted to have a word with their commander in private, Arthur replied that there were no secrets amongst them Lancelot spoke. “Come let us leave Roman business to Romans” Giving Arthur a look then the knights left.

It was a little later that Arthur came to them and told them of on last assignment before they were to be given their papers. All of the knights protested but they would follow Arthur nonetheless.

Lancelot knew when he saw the way Arthur looked at the British girl they had found in a stone building on the Roman they had come afters land that he was beginning to lose Arthur. On their way back to their soon to be no longer home they lost Dogonet. The night Guinevere came to Arthur, Lancelot had not yet returned to their rooms. Yet Arthur did not seem to care as he took Guinevere.
***
In a desperate attempt to keep Arthur even as said person began to fall more and more in love with Guinevere, Lancelot sought out Merlin.

“Why have you come to me knight?” Merlin asked looking at the young man before him.

“I cannot believe I am about to say this but I need your help”

“You need my help? I find that hard to believe”

“I’riourious, for the last four years Arthur and I have been together but now I lose him to Guinevere. All I ask is to have Arthur once more.”

“Why should I do this, knight?”
“Because I love him”

Merlin thought long and hard so the knight just wanted one last time with Arthur so be it. “I will do this knight but know there will be a price that you will have to pay. Do not ask what it is for I will not tell you, you shall find out soon enough” Lancelot nodded. “Go now, ton go go to Arthur and you shall have him once more” Then Merlin walked away.

That night Lancelot sought Arthur out and found him in his quarters alone. “Arthur” he called softly entering the room.

“What is it Lance?”

“Arthur, I have seen the way you look at Guinevere. I have accepted that though you may care about me you love her. All I ask is once last night with you just one then I shall never bother you again”

“Lancelot, I will always care for you that is true. We will share tonight for this could very well be our last night on this Earth” With that Arthur pulled Lancelot to him and kissed him passionately his tongue pushing against Lancelot’s teeth. Lips parted and Arthur began to plunder the sweet mouth before him.

Both wanted to enjoy this last night they had. Arthur picked up and carried Lancelot to the bed and set him down gently and took his time removing their clothing as each piece of flesh was revealed Arthur placed gentle kisses on the knights body. By the time they were both naked Lancelot was pretty much nothing more then a quivering mess. Lancelot made slow sweet love to Arthur that night.

The day the Saxons arrived Lancelot and the others left leaving Arthur who would not be persuaded to leave. They had made it perhaps a couple of miles when the sound of the drums caused their horses to spook. After they were calmed the knights didn’t even speak as they turned and rode to where Arthur was upon the hill.

Tristan lost his life and Lancelot nearly lost his as it was he was badly injured. When he recovered he disappeared into the night he never saw the wedding that he knew would take place. That was the price Lancelot had to pay he had to leave and would never see Arthur or this land again unless he was called for by Arthur himself.

Years passed and more then once Arthur wished to have Lancelot by his side but he knew not where the knight was. He had disappeared into the night the day before his wedding to Guinevere. Arthur was speakto Mto Merlin one day when he said. “I wish now like I have a million times before. I wish I had Lancelot at my side once more”

This was the first Merlin had ever heard Arthur speak the words. The spell he had cast to keep the knight away was now broken, he could now return.

“Why not send a message to him” Merlin asked.

“I would not know where to send it.” Arthur replied.

“Then send one of the knights to where you think he might be”

“An excellent idea, Merlin thank you. Gawain, Galahad” Arthur called a few moments later tcamecame in.

“I am going to write a letter and I want you both to go and try to find Lancelot he is probably somewhere in Sarmatia”

They nodded and when Arthur had written the letter and sealed it he handed it to Galahad. “I wish you both luck, when you find him tell him to come back” he had almost said home. They nodded and left after gathering what they would need they left.

It would take months alone to reach Sarmatia, and a few more to receive word of a great swordsman in a village 30 miles from where they were currently. They set out that day and camped out that night and the next before they reached the village they sought. After asking a few of the villagers they were directed to a somewhat large home at the edge of town.

Upon their arrival at the house they saw Lancelot older, still good looking teaching two young boys to fight. Well really he was calling out instructions. That was when he saw two people he never thought he would ever see again…Gawain and Galahad.

“You are a hard man to find” Gawain said as way of greeting.

“I made sure of that for a reason, now why are you two here”

“What is that all no how are you, how have you two been, forgive me for being a horses arse”

“How dare you insult him”

“Yeah”

“Drake, Perceval enough go inside”

“But…” the two boys said at the same time.

“No buts go inside”

“Fine Gawahow how have you two been. There has to be a good reason for you two to track me down”

“Oh there is I assure you, Arthur wants you to return”

“What?”

“You heard me Arthur told me that more then once he has wished you by his side, for council and other matters”

“And this comes from Arthur”

“Yes” Galahad said handing Lancelot the letter Arthur had written. Lancelot broke the seal and began to read.

My dearest Lancelot,

I have missed you so much over the years I understand though why you left. But I ask you now to please return to me. I finally realized how much I love you, yes I care for Guinevere she is a good woman but it is you my brave knight that holds my heart. Please return with Gawain and Galahad I knew I could trust them with the task of finding you since I could not come myself. Please my brave knight return to me.

Love always,
Arthur

“Drake, Perceval pack your things we are leaving”

“They are coming with us?” Gawain asked.

“Of course they are Drake is my nephew and Perceval is my son.”