Living the dream

Title: Living the dream (3/?)
Author: Mahie/EvenStar
E-mail: persefone_rj@hotmail.com
For other warnings and such see part 1.
No infringement is intended.
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Jack was at the helm the morning after he had found one Will Turner at
his cabin door. Jack sighed. What did that mean,Will being able to sense
his thoughts and dreams? Jack smiled despite himself. It would be wonderful
if Will discovered Jack loved him without Jack having to say that and
wait for an undeniable rejection.
That was what Jack thought. Will would reject him if he told the lad the
way he felt. So,Jack would keep his mouth shut and be happy that he was
Will's friend. That was special too and Jack didn't want to ruin it by
saying he loved Will.
Jack was so entranced that didn't notice someone approaching him.
'Miss *Turner*' he thought.
"Hello,Captain."
"Good day missy."
"I was wondering...um...would you mind if I didn't swab the deck today?
I mean,I think I could cook."
Jack shrugged. "As long as you find someone to replace you,it's alright.
And please tell our cook about that."
"I can help him." Liz said. "It'll be better to have someone by my side
at first. I never cooked before."
"You never cooked?" Jack asked disbelievingly. "Then why do you want to
cook?"
"Not that I'd like to,but anything's better than swabbing the deck."
"Spoiled." Jack muttered.
"What was that?" Liz asked,frowning,and Jack smirked:
"Nothing...*luv*...well,hope you don't burn anything."
Liz tried to smile playfully at Jack,but the Captain had already turned
his attention to the helm again. Elizabeth left and went to the kitchen.
The cook let her help him. But Elizabeth simply *couldn't* cook. She
really burned a lot of things,as Jack had feared. The cook's sighs were
heard on the deck. And Elizabeth gave up before she ruined the crew's
lunch.
She ran to her cabin and started to cry. Why was it so difficult to live
in a ship? Why couldn't she adapt more easily?
---
Will had not notice Elizabeth's distress. He was with Jack,as usual,while
the captain steered the ship. Will seemed oblivious to everything around
them. He was thinking about the previous night,when he had sensed
Jack's nightmare. It was so crazy. Will couldn't help feeling scared,
but this happening had made him feel closer to Jack. Not only that. The
excitement he felt for being part of Jack's crew hadn't ceased yet. He
wasn't really thinking about Elizabeth.
Jack had also felt really closer to Will after the previous night incident.
He had awaken with Will on his mind and his heart. Not that he hadn't
awaken like that before but this time it was stronger. Jack was obsessed
in making Will know how to steer the ship,and it was a proof of how much
he liked the boy. Jack didn't share his ship with anyone except Gibbs
and Annamaria who were his friends.
Will was happy to know Jack trusted him so. And didn't want to disappoint
him. While he was steering the ship,Jack was at his side to help him if
needed.
"Am I doing right?" Will asked almost fearfully.
"Of course are,are,young Will." Jack smiled. "Just be careful. The ship
can't be swaying. Try to keep it straight."
'Okay." Will said,a bit tense. He didn't know why,but Jack's approval
was really important to him now.
Trying to change the subject,Jack said:
"Did you sleep well after that...um...incident last night?"
"I did." Will nodded. "But I'm still intrigued."
"So am I. Why do you think it happened?"
"I was thinking about it,Jack." Will sighed. "But no conclusion came to
my mind. Gosh,it's so weird."
Jack touched Will's back lightly. "Don't be afraid. I'm sure it's nothing
important. You're just sensitive,that's all."
Will tried to believe that,but couldn't. Okay,he was a sensitive lad. But
*this* kind of thing had never happened to him. Will looked at the sky,
trying to forget his thoughts. But Jack spoke again:
"I don't think it makes any sense,but have you ever thought about what
happens when two people save each other's lives?"
Will looked at Jack: "It makes sense to me."
"But how?" Jack said. "We would be dealing with supernatural things here.
All we did were saving one another's life."
"We *have* already dealt with supernatural,Jack. Why wouldn't it be like
that again?"
Jack considered Will's thought and said:
"So do you think we're cursed?"
"I can't think of it as a curse." Will explained simply.
"Why not?" Jack asked.
"It doesn't make me feel bad. I only feel...um...closer to you."
Jack simply stared at Will and understood he felt the same. He nodded.
He wanted to hold Will more than anything in the world while he was
behind the lad helping him to steer the Pearl. But Jack didn't do that.
He caressed Will's back softly and said:
"Call me if you need."
"Okay." Will smiled and Jack smiled back.
----
Later that night,Will and Elizabeth were finally having sex. Will was
incredibly horny that day and didn't understand why. The only thing he
was sure was that he wasn't really happy about having sex with Elizabeth
*again.* The girl was distressed and even more shy in bed.
"Liz...we can't make it that way." Will sighed. "You have to relax." he
said after trying to penetrate her for the third time. But she wasn't
wet. Will didn't even care if she wasn't aroused by him. He was aware
that he sometimes only got aroused if he thought about men...and Jack.
"I'm so sorry,Will." she said,sadly. "It's just...everything is going
wrong."
"What do you mean?" Will asked,concerned.
"Yesterday was swabbing the deck...today was cooking...I can't do anything
rightly."
Well,*that* was *really* arousing. Will sighed and disentangled himself
from Liz. He was sure he would have to stroke himself again.
"It's okay,Liz." Will said. "I know you're feeling bad. Let's sleep then."
"I'm so sorry I'm not being a proper wife." she said.
'You worry too much on being proper.' Will thought. 'That's why our sexual
life is this mess.'
"It's going to get better." Will said.
Elizabeth slept soon and Will stroke himself to completion. Again,he
thought of Jack while doing so. And after orgasming,Will left his cabin.
He needed to relax.
----
Will stepped on the deck only to see the same two men of the night before
kissing roughly. As he hadn't noticed it at first,Will felt really startled
when he saw the couple. They hadn't noticed him yet and Will couldn't
help but look at them with hunger in his eyes. He was horny,Elizabeth
wasn't interested in having sex and masturbating never felt the same as
real sex. Will couldn't help but harden at the sight. The men were
incredibly aroused. They licked and kissed one another with a passion
Will hadn't seen before.
Will hid himself before he was seen.
'God,what is happening to me?' he thought while panting. His cock was
hard as a stone inside his pants and pressed painfully against Will's
ziper.
Before he could go back to his cabin and avoid being seen,one of the men
found him:
"Isn't you Will Turner?" he asked.
Will almost jumped with the surprise: "I am." he answered nervously.
"I know." the man said. The one whom he was kissing seemed to have
vanished. "I've heard of you. You're the son of Bootstrap Bill Turner.
The Captain has told me."
"Has he?" Will managed. He was red with embarrasment. He knew the man
had caught him staring.
"He has. He's very fond of you,the Captain. Never saw him so happy as
after you joined us."
"Really?" Will smiled despite himself.
"So...are you two together?"
"What?!" Will asked,astonished.
"Well,seeing as you and Captain Jack are close I was wondering if you
shared his bed."
"No!" Will said. "I'm married."
The pirate laughed.
"I know you are,son. I've seen your wife. Poor girl. I bet she's rich."
"How do you know?"
"She was so distressed. Couldn't do a thing in the ship. I'm sure it's
not because she's a woman. You see,Annamaria can do *everything*."
"You're right. Liz is worried because she's not adapting."
The pirate nodded.
"What is your name?" Will asked.
"Crane."
"I think I haven't met you. Nice to meet you." Will said.
"Meet me? No,you haven't. But I'm sure I saw you staring at me and my
mate yesterday."
"Look,I'm sorry,I..." Will was starting to babble,but Crane said:
"No need to apologize,son. I know yer curious. Never buggered anyone?"
"No." Will said faintly.
Crane grinned.
"You let me know if you want to. It's very common in a pirate ship. No
one is going to look at you differently,as people who are not pirates
would. And yer girl doesn't need to know,of course not." he shook his
head.
Will was silent,but his heart was pounding inside his chest. He didn't
know if the man was asking if he wanted to be buggered *at the moment*
or what,but was frozen and didn't say a thing. Noticing Will's distress,
Crane asked:
"That's why I asked about you and the Captain. I don't want to upset him.
But if yer not together,I thought I could make a proposition to you. Well,
you think about it if you want." Crane stood up. "I have to go. Have to
bugger someone." he left with a smirk.
Will stood where he was and tried to calm his breathing.
He had just been asked if he wanted to have sex with another man.
To be honest,he *craved* for that.
The more Will tried to deny it,the stronger his desires flowed.
Will was sure he wanted that. But he didn't know if he would allow his
instincts to take over.
Still trying to calm his breathing,he saw Jack. The captain was looking
at him sadly. Will couldn't know why was that. Jack approached him. He
didn't look drunk anymore. Maybe he had stopped drinking. But Will realized
that Jack was very worried,more than drunk.
"Are you okay,Jack?" Will asked.
"What did Crane say to you?"
Will frowned: "Why do you want to know?" he aked harshly. He didn't want
to sound so harsh,but was very embarrassed to tell anyone what had happened.
Jack fell silent. Will touched his arm:
"Want me to take you to your cabin?"
Jack nodded,defeated. But while he was going there with Will,he said:
"Will,Crane is a slut. I can'ny hny he's sexy. He conquers everyone he
wants. I just wanted you to be careful. I don't mean to invade your
privacy,but I noticed the way he was looking at you."
Will said nothing. He wanted to ask if Crane had buggered him,but didn't
have the guts to. Instead,he confessed:
"He asked me if I wanted to be buggered."
"He WHAT?"
"You heard me." Will avoided Jack's eyes. "Jack...Liz doesn't want to
have sex with me. And even if she did,it wasn't good. I've told you."
"Are you going to accept his offer?" Jack asked,trying to hide his
sadness. But Will noticed it. And,for the first time,he wondered if Jack
would really be upset,as Crane had suggested. Will hadn't understood much
when the man had asked him if Jack would be upset.
Now Will was almost sure he understood why Crane had asked that.
Jack felt something for him,Will was sure of that now.
"I want to." Will said and didn't feel guilty. What he shared with Jack
was much stronger than a night of pleasure.
"You do?"
Will nodded and lowered his head. He felt more than surprised when Jack
hugged him. Will said:
"Are you...upset?"
Jack hid all his feelings so quickly that Will thought he had felt wrong
and Jack didn't feel a thing about him.
"Why would I?" Jack asked,hidins fes feelings successfully. "I want you
to be happy."
It was true. Jack loved Will so much that would try to understand if he
wanted to have sex with Crane. And Jack wanted Will to be happy more
than anything in the world. Of course he wanted Will to be happy with
*him* but if it wasn't possible,he wouldn't root against him.
"It's just sex." Will said,as if sensing Jack's feelings,though the pirate
hid them well. "It can't be anything more."
Jack nodded. He tried to joke:
"Never knew you liked men."
"Well..." Will smiled. "It's curious...I think I'll do that because of
my curiosity,nothing more."
'So why don't you do this with me?' Jack thought sadly. But he was sure
he didn't want to be with Will if the lad thought about their encounters
as just sex. Jack would suffer if Will only wanted sex with him. And so
he understood he wanted much more than sex with Will. It was better if
Will did it with another person. Jack felt a bit happier. Maybe it was
just that,curiosity.
"Just be careful not to fall in love with Crane." Jack warned him. "He
doesn't feel attached to anyone."
"I won't." Will looked at him meaningfully. He knew Jack felt a little
something for him. He just didn't know that the "little" something wasn't
really "little."
"Don't tell Liz." Will asked Jack. "She's already sad,I don't want to
make her feel worse."
"Of course not." Jack seemed almost hurt that Will had thought he'd betray
him like that. "Go to sleep." Jack kissed Will's forehead. "It's late."
Will looked at Jack with love in his eyes and left.
----
The next day,Will couldn't pay less attention to Elizabeth. He couldn't
forget Crane's proposition. He couldn't forget Jack's worries about him.
Jack treated him all the same,but he was sad. Will knew that. And he
knew he needed to speak to Jack.
In the afternoon,Will saw Crane staring at him. He blushed,but the man
approached,seeing that Will was alone. They were next to the railing and
no one was there at that hour.
"So how're you doing?" Crane asked in that charming smile. Will felt his
heart pounding. He felt attracted to this man,he was sure of that now.
"I'm fine."
"Did you tell the Captain what I asked you,didn't you?"
"Why?" Will asked,astonished. How could this man be so perceptive?
"Well,he was cold with odayoday." Crane laughed. "He seemed to be irritated
with me."
"He worries about me." Will explained. "It's just that. He doesn't want
me to regret what I'm about to do."
Crane smirked at Will:
"So,is it a yes?"
"It is." Will said simply.
"Good." Crane smiled and kissed Will.
Will didn't know how to react,but felt drowned to that kiss. The man
*knew* how to kiss,dammit. Will responded eagerly,feeling all his desires
come to surface. Everything he had repressed while with Elizabeth was
showing again with a fury Will didn't know he possessed.
They were in the crew's quarters soon. Will didn't want Jack or Elizabeth
to see them. Not that Elizabeth would. She was downstairs trying to work
in another part of the ship *again* to see if she adapted with *something.*
But Jack was at the helm and Will didn't want him to see Crane locking
his mouth on his.
Will felt really good with Crane,but it was what he had told Jack. It was
just sex. Just curiosity. Just a way of living his fantasies and feel
like he was living again. Will hadn't known how sex was important to him
before this day. And Crane,though wasn't the one he loved,was kind and
gentle because it had been Will's first time with a man. Will really
liked having sex with him.
But after that he felt a need to be with Jack he hadn't felt before. It
was almost like Jack was calling him. Will sensed Jack inside of him,
sensed him in his mind and suddenly didn't want to be with Crane anymore.
"Thanks." Will said while putting his clothes on again. "You were great."
"You were too,lad. Remember I'm here anytime you want more." Crane smiled
his most mischievous smile.
"Alright." Will laughed.
"Do you like the Captain,don't you?"
"What?!" Will asked and Crane smiled.
"Nothing,lad. Just wondering."
"I don't know." Will said sincerely. "I have to confess I desire him. But
he's my friend. If I had something with him,it wouldn't be only sex. I
couldn't do it like I did with you. I mean,you're cool,but we're not
friends. It's easier."
"I see,lad. Go see your Captain then."
"How do you know I was going to see him?"
"I didn't." Crane laughed.
Will went to the helm and Jack was there,completely oblivious of what had
happened. Will decided not to tell him. Actually,he was going to talk to
Jack because he had sensed Jack wanted to talk to him.
Will approached Jack and said:
"So what did you want to tee?" e?" Will smiled knowingly.
Jack opened his mouth in surprise. Yes,he *really* wanted to talk to Will
and was surprised that Will had discovered that.
Will smiled and held Jack tightly. Jack asked Anna to take the helm and
went with Will to his cabin.
Will didn't want to tell,but couldn't help it.
"I did it."
"What did you do?" Jack asked,still oblivious.
"You know what." Will said mysteriously and Jack understood it.
"You had sex with Crane."
"Yes." Will smiled.
Jack looked away. He couldn't help it. A tear ran through his face.
Will's smile vanished. He didn't know how much his act would affect Jack.
He couldn't know it would make him *cry*,for God's sake!
Jack had nothing to hide anymore. He just stayed there. Will was frozen
in his place. He just wanted to disappear not to see Jack like that. It
made him want to cry as well.
Will reached to Jack and held him tightly. He caressed his friend's face
and neck and kissed Jack's mouth softly. He didn't know why he did that,
but he did.
Jack looked at him,not understanding a thing. He just knew that he wanted
to kiss Will back.
They kissed again. Not the way Will had kissed Crane. Kissing Jack
made Will want to be more caring,more loving. He held Jack tightly against
himself.
"I don't want you to cry anymore." Will said,breaking the kiss. "It's
just sex,I've told you."
Jack kissed Will again,lovingly and desperately. Will responded eagerly
and it felt really perfect. Being with Jack was perfection. But he broke
the kiss anyway.
They stayed there,holding one another and the tension ran out. Jack
caressed Will's hair and Will asked:
"So what did you want to tell me?"
Jack seemed to be awakened of a good dream. But he said,anyway:
"I was just thinking about something..."
"About what?" Will put his head on Jack's shoulder and Jack stroked
Will's hair softly.
"I think I have an idea about why we sense one another...you just sensed
me again,didn't you? When you went to talk to me,you *knew* I wanted to
talk to you."
"I did." Will said. "So why do you think we're feeling this connection?"
"It has nothing to do with supernatural or other things." Jack said.
"No?"
"No." Jack said. "Sensitive people can sense others and it's *natural*,
not *supernatural*,Will.
"But why is that?" Will said,still intrigued. "Why do we *both* feel it?"
"Maybe there's nothing out there,Will. There's no impressive answer to
that. No incredible reasons."
Will was listening to Jack and the pirate continued:
"Maybe we sense one another because we like one another very much. It
only happens when we care for someone deeply. You can't sense someone
you don't care about."
"It makes sense to me." Will said softly. "Sensing is a kind of worry,I
think. So,you can't worry about the ones you don't care."
"Exactly."
Will kissed him softly on the mouth: "I know I care about you."
"Me too." Jack caressed Will's hair and gave him a long kiss.
They stayed for a long time at Jack's cabin. Jack was feeling wonderful,
though he and Will hadn't had sex. Will had told him he didn't want to
ruin their friendship. He had been sincere,telling Jack he was confused.
There was Elizabeth,after all. And he didn't want to rush anything between
he and Jack and ruin their relationship. Jack wanted them to be together,
but understood Will. Knowing that he,at least,desired and loved him enough
to kiss and tell everything he felt,not trying to deceive Jack with
something he didn't know if he could do yet (such as being his lover),
only made Jack feel the happiest man on Earth. He wanted more,sure. But
he could wait.
"Promise me one thing?" Jack asked.
"Anything."
"You won't fall in love with Crane."
Will laughed.
"Never. He's nice,but he's not a man I would choose to be my lover."
"Promise?" Jack smiled almost vulnerably.
"I promise." Will kissed Jack's mouth with such love that Jack knew deep
inside him that Will would be his someday.

End of Chapter 3

TBC

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