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By: PiratesWench
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Rating: Adult +
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Sacrifice

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Shooter heard the cocking of the gun and his eyes
went wide. “Stop squirmin’, boy!” he
yelled. “I won’ let you take the
coward’s way out!”

 

“I’m not,” he said, his mind drifting to Alex,
Julia, and his unborn child. “I’m
stopping you.” The black hat.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> That damn black hat was under his desk.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Getting a quick idea, Mput put it on his
head, then held the gun to his temple. I’m
sorry Alex. I have to keep you
safe. I love you.
style="mso-spacerun: yes">

 
>

Shooter screamed and rushed toward Mort, but before
he reached him, the gun went off.
Mort’s body crumpled on the floor, leaving Shooter in a panic.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> “No!
You son of a bitch!” Instantly,
he felt his hold on the “mortal world” weaken.

 

An hour later, the front door opened and Alex,
Julia, and Karen came through it.
Immediately, Alex heard the stereo.
“Boys will be boys, huh?” she laughed.

 

“Steven has those days too.”style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Karen looked at her watch.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> “Well, you’ve been away from him for a few
hours, I’m sure the urge to kiss him is killing you.”

 

Alex acted innocent. “As a matter of fact, it is.”
She smiled and made her way to Mort’s office. The door was wide open, but the office didn’t look as bright as
it hadlierlier. It was now raining
outside an spe specks of color were shining in the room.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> wen went to the stereo and turned it
off. Mort was nowhere in sight.

 

Feeling concerned, but not worried, Alex found
herself looking around the off
Eventually, her eyes fell on the small box on the corner of the
desk. Still open, she was able to see
what was inside. Her hand flew to her
mouth. Oh, Mort…style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She knew she shouldn’t be looking, but she
couldn’t help herself. her head to steal a good look at the ring, she saw him.

 

Her second chance at real love, the father er
er
unborn child, was lying behind his desk in a bloody heap.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She couldn’t scream; her mind wouldn’t let
her accept what she was seeing. “Mort?”
she said softly. Tears began to form in
her eyes. “Please, God…no.”style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Shelt elt next to his body.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Her mind understood now, but her heart
didn’t. She didn’t think twice about the
hat, which had fallen from his head after he hit the floor, when she caressed
his face. He was still slightly
warm. “M-Mort?”style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She finally broke down, sobbing.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> “Mort!”

 

Karen heard her sister’s scream and, unsure of what
was happening, put Julia in her playpen before running into the office.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> The desk blocked her view and she couldn’t
see right away…but when she did, her heart broke. Before consoling her sister, she called 911.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> As soon as the call was finished, she was at
Alex’s side, turning her sister’s head away from her deceased lover.

 

The next few days were a blur to Alex.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She was bombarded with questions that she
couldn’t answer by a large number of people and the funeral…that was harder for
her than Tristan’s was. Why?style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Well, she looked at the facts.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Mort was very obviously going to propose to
her, but instead killed himself. Alex
was shattered.

 

Karen did all she could for her sister both before
and after Mort’s burial. She couldn’t
believe that Alex was with child once again, under the same circumstances…well,
almost the same. She just couldn’t
understand why Mort would so such a thing.
Dr. Harris had his theories, but none of them could ever be proven.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Speaking of the doctor, Alex was seeing him
twice a week now – determined to fight against her depression – determined to
make sure that her child entered into this world a healthy one.

 

After a few weeks, Alex forced herself to go back to
her house – she hadn’t stepped foot inside since the afternoon of Mort’s
death. Someone had been hired to clean
the office, Karen had checked it herself to make sure that all evidence of…to
make sure that the job was well done.
Both Steven and Karen went with her, knowing full well that she may not
be able to take the stress.

 

“You can stay in here,” Alex said as they entered
the living room. “I…I want to go in
alone.”

 

“Alex, are you sure?” Steven asked.style="mso-spacerun: yes">

 

She nodded silently and went into the office.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Why, Mort? What made you do it? Did
he…did you see him again? Did the
medication…
She couldn’t think
clearly once she walked to his desk.
Mort’s laptop sat open and it was on, she could hear its low hum.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> For some reason she looked around, part of
her expecting to see him. She was
alone. Alex walked to the other side of
the desk to look at the screen. It
wasn’t blank. Her knees weakened and
she sat down in his chair. Slowly and
through watery eyes, she began to read.

 

Alex,

 

I wish that things didn’t have to be this way;
you need to know that I didn’t want to leave you. I have a feeling that you already know that much.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> I never would have abandoned you unless
there was no other way to keep you safe.
There is nobody else on this earth that has ever shown me the kind of
love and support that you did. You
saved me. You gave me a chance to live
again.

 

My last thoughts were of you, Julia, and our
unborn child. I swear that I will keep
watch over you all. The pain that you
are feeling now is unbearable – I know because I can feel it too.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> It will pass, I promise.style="mso-spacerun: yes">

 

On the bookshelf, there is a copy of Everybody
Drops the Dime
. I know that you
understand the significance of that book.
There is paperwork inside instructing that…to be brief, all that I have,
and all royalties that may come in, belong to you and the girls.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> You read that correctly.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> We made a girl, Alex.

 

Alex silently cried into her hand.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> If this were some kind of joke, then someone
very cruel had been in here – but deep down, something was telling Alex that
this made sense, that what she was reading truly was from Morton Rainey.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She continued to read.

 

I wasn’t sick.
You’re reading something that you know shouldn’t be possible; therefore
what I have to tell you shouldn’t seem any more unbelievable.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> John Shooter was a real person.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> He died and tried to use me as a way to live
again. I didn’t believe him until the
very end. I refused to let him harm you
– that is why I’m gone. He can’t hurt
anyone now.

 

Look to your left.

 

Now sobbing, Alex looked to the left of the
laptop. The ring that should have been
on her finger was sitting on the desk blotter.
That wasn’t there…I know that wasn’t there.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Her hands were trembling terribly as she
picked up the ring. Her eyes shot back
to the screen.

 

I wanted to marry you, to make a real life with
you, to make a family with you. I’d
give you the world if I could. I’m not
asking you to wear what you’ve found, but I am asking you to please keep
it.

 

Alex didn’t think twice before slipping the ring
onto her finger. Where are you,
Mort…I swear to God, you’re here.

 

I love you, Alex. I am always with you…

 

She scrolled down the document, but there was
nothing else to read. No…no,
please…there has to be more…
She
got up and, on shaky legs, went into the living room. “Nobody’s been in there, right?” she asked frantically.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> “Nobody’s touched a thing since the office
was cleaned up?”

 

“No,” Karen said, standing up.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Her sister was horribly pale and tears were
still flowing from her eyes. “Alex,
sweetheart, what’s…”

 

“His computer, was it on the desk when you were
here?”

 

“I don’t think so.”

 

“And you swear – you swear that nobody has
been in there.”

 

“Not a soul, Alex.
Why?”

 

Alex pulled on Karen’s arm and led her into the
office. “Look!” she said, pointing to
the laptop. Karen walked over to it and
looked at the screen.

 

“What am I looking at?” she asked gently.

 

“Mort…Mort, he wrote to me!style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Read it!”

 

Karen’s eyes welled with tears, but she did
everything she could to keep them from falling. “Honey, it’s blank.”

 

Alex looked horrified. “No…” She rushed to the
desk and looked over Karen’s shoulder.
It was gone. “It was here,” she
said weakly. “I’m not making it up.”

 

Karen hugged Alex.
“Alex,” she cooed, stroking her hair, “you’re under a lot of stress
and…”

 

“I didn’t see things,” Alex insisted.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She held up her hand.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> “You put this away, didn’t you?style="mso-spacerun: yes"> You took this with you and you put it away
somewhere because I asked you to.”

 

“I…I did.
You told me not to tell you where.”

 

“It was right here,” Alex said, pointing to the
place on the desk where she found it.
“I didn’t put it there. Please
tell me that it wasn’t you.”

 

Karen shook her head. “It…it wasn’t. There has
to be some explanation though.”

 

“There is,” Alex said surely.style="mso-spacerun: yes">

 

“He’s gone, Alex.
I’m sorry, but he’s gone and he didn’t put…” The look on Alex’s face made her stop. “I’m going to make sure Steven…come on, you shouldn’t be in
here.”

 

“I’ll be out in a minute.” Alex continued to stare at the screen after Karen left.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Come back… She walked to the bookshelves and pulled out the copy of Everybody
Drops the Dime
– upon opening the cover, she found several folded legal
documents. She wasn’t sure of the
jargon on them, but she knew what they were going to boil down to.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She thought back to what she had read.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Why is it gone?

 

She placed the book and the papers on the desk –
she’d deal with them tomorrow. She took
a final look at the office, then turned to leave.

 

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>To the soul's desires

The body listens

What the flesh requires

Keeps the heart imprisoned

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She
froze. The stereo had turned on and she
stood staring at it. God, am I
losing it? I know I didn’t do that.style='mso-special-character:line-break'>


style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>What the spirit seeks

The mind will follow

When the body speaks

All else is hollow

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'> 

Her mind
went to the first night that she and Mort had made love.style="mso-spacerun: yes">
How was it possible that that exact song was
playing now? She turned to face Mort’s
desk again and nearly fainted when she caught her reflection in the
window. She wasn’t alone anymore.style="mso-spacerun: yes">

 

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>I'm just an angel

Driving blindly

Through this world

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'> 

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>Mort stood behind her, a sad smile on his
face.

I'm just a slave here

At the mercy

Of a girl

 

Alex watched as his arms slid around her.style="mso-spacerun: yes"> She didn’t feel cold, as she expected, she
felt warmth coming from him. His hands
stopped, resting on her swollen stomach.

 

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'>Oh I need your tenderness

Oh I need your touch

Oh I dream of one caress

Oh I pray too much

style='mso-bidi-font-size:10.0pt'> 

She started
to cry again, but she heard Mort’s voice in her ear. “Shh, no more tears, baby.
I love you.” She smiled and
turned to see him, but hen’t n’t there.
She looked back at her reflection, she was alone…but she knew that Mort
would somehow always be there.

 

~The End~

 

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Author’s Note: style="mso-spacerun: yes"> Well, there you have it – the “not so happy”
ending of the story. Thanks for all of
the support – can I get one last review?
Pretty please?

 

 

 

 




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