Living the dream

Title: Living the dream (4/?)
Author: Mahie/EvenStar
E-mail: persefone_rj@hotmail.com
For other warnings and such see part 1.
No infringement is intended.
"speech" 'thoughts' *emphasis*
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Hi dears! Thanks for the reviews! You guys rock!
Thanks Newenit! And no,Crane is a good guy. ;) He won't be a problem
to Jack and Will. But there'll be another problem...just read this chapter!
Will,thanks to you too,dear! I'm sending you the new chapters soon,okay?
Hope you like this one too!

Well,about this chapter...I don't mean to make Will a slut...let's just
see it as he is very excited about homosexual sex and so he wants to have
some partners. Anyway,his heart bgs tgs to Jack. ;)
Warnings for this chapter: RAPE. You have been warned. Don't like it,
don't read it.
Please rw low loves!!!!! Or I'm going to think you don't like it. ;)
Please let me know if you like!
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Several weeks passed. Jack and his crew had pillaged and plundered many
merchant ships,made enemies walk the plank,marooned others. Will was happy
with his life,though he was more confused than ever. It seemed he had
divided himself in three - one who was committed to Elizabeth,another
who was experiencing homosexual sex with Crane and a few other members
of the crew and another who craved for comfort and love in Jack's arms.
Being with Jack was what Will's heart desired the most,and so he spent
a lot of time with the Captain. He didn't know why,but he couldn't make
love to Jack. Though Will undeniably loved him,he was afraid of taking
things further,for he was extremely confused. He couldn't simply send
Elizabeth away,and though he knew he could make love to Jack if he wanted
to,he was at the same time still excited for all the new things he had
discovered. He didn't want to stop having sex with the members of the
crew. They were nice people,and Will sometimes told them how he felt
about Jack and Elizabeth. They were good mates,Will thought,and only that.
Though he had sex with some members of the crew,Crane and Ian were the
ones he did that the most.
Jack knew about Will's adventures and though it didn't make him happy,
he had learned to believe it was just sex for Will. He only didn't
understand why Will didn't want to have sex with him.
"It's because you are too special to me." Will said to Jack. "I can't
just have sex with you when I don't know what I'm going to do about
Elizabeth. I don't want to hurt you,for I know you love me."
Too special. Jack loved to hear that from Will,but was becoming really
sad that Will didn't want him. But Will did. He just didn't know how to
stop acting like he was three different people.
One night,Jack was at the helm. Will had just made love to Elizabeth.
Though she hadn't really adapted in a pirate's life,she was more relaxed
and was starting to make love to Will again. But Will thought it was a
marr obl obligation,nothing more. Sex with the crewmembers was much better.
Truthfully,he stayed with Liz because he pitied her and couldn't send
her away. He could find sex with Ian and Crane and he could find love
- and sex if he wanted - with Jack.
Will left his cabin after another boring lovemaking session with Liz and
found Jack at the helm. Grinning,Will approached him and held his waist
from behind. No one was at the deck at that hour and Liz had gone to
sleep. Will lay headhead on Jack's shoulder,kissing his neck softly,and
Jack knew exactly who was behind him.
"Will!" Jack smiled caringly. "I thought you were asleep."
"Well,I'm not." Will smiled back. "Saw you and wanted to give you a kiss."
Jack turned to him and kissed his mouth slowly,tasting Will,feeling him
inside his mouth. It was heaven to Jack,to be this close to Will. Well,
didn't people use to say that a kiss could be more intimate than love
making? Sometimes,Jack felt they made love while they kissed,such was
the intimacy they shared.
"Are you going to stay here at the helm?" Will asked.
"I think so. Gibbs and Anna are sleeping. Unless you want to take it."
"I could,but I was asking that because I wanted to stay with you in your
cabin."
"Stay here with me." Jack asked,holding Will's hand.
"Okay." Will melted.
They stood there in silence,just enjoying each other's company. But Jack
asked after some time:
"Is Crane being gentle to you?"
"Jack,he's nice,I've told you that." Will kissed him softly. "Don't worry
about me,love."
Though Jack was jealous,he felt Will's love for him. It was the only
reason why he didn't feel very worried about their future. He knew he
shared something special with Will. They knew one another. They talked
about everything. They comforted and cared for one another. And Jack knew
Will didn't share anything this deep with Elizabeth or the men he had
sex with,though he liked them all as well. Jack knew that if he wanted
to stay with Will,the boy would go to him immediately,even if he was
planning to have sex with any of the crewmembers or talk to Elizabeth
about her several problems.
Making love to Will was just a matter of time.
They stood there in the deck,holding one another,kissing softly,when
Will said:
"I think I'm going to sleep,Jack. Do you want me to call Anna or Gibbs
so that you can sleep too?" he asked,worried that Jack didn't get much
sleep at night.
"Gibbs went to bed early. Can you call him?"
"Sure." Will kissed Jack softly and left.
Gibbs came to the deck quickly and took the helm. Will and Jack said their
goodnights in front of Jack's cabin door.
"I wish you could sleep with me." Jack said sadly.
"I will. Someday. I promise." Will replied,caressing his love's face.
"Goodnight." Jack said,kissing Will's mouth. "I love you."
Will felt his heart quicken and held Jack tightly,though he didn't say
the words back to him. Jack said them to Will often. He wasn't afraid
of telling Will how he felt,even if he didn't know for sure if Will felt
the same.
What Jack didn't know was that Will was afraid of telling him the way
he felt. For Will surely loved him back.
----
Will came back to his cabin and Elizabeth was awake. He didnook ook at
her in the eye,afraid that she had seen him with Jack. But Liz just said:
"Will,we need to talk."
"Um...about what?" Will answered nervously.
"I can't stand to stay here anymore."
Will looked at her this time. He wasn't sure of what she had meant,but
she explained quickly:
"I can't do anything right here in this ship. This life is not for me,
Will."
"But Liz...you...you were learning how to cook...you were getting used
with swabbing the deck...what's the matter now?" Will said desperately.
"I know I am,but I hate it all. I can't do it anymore,Will. We need to
go back home."
'Go back home.' Will thought. But he was at home! He dn'tdn't even think
about returning to Port Royal,once he had known life on the sea.
"Are you coming back with me,aren't you?" Elizabeth asked. "I mean,I know
you are happy here,but...you're my husband..."
Will was sure he wouldn't come back. But he didn't know how to tell Liz
about that.
He sighed.
"What's wrong?" Elizabeth asked warily.
"I'm sorry,Elizabeth." Will felt really bad to have to do it,but he needed.
For his own sake. "But I can't go back now."
t?" t?" Elizabeth's eyes widened.
"If you want to go back,then go. But I won't. Here's my home now,and..."
"Will..."
"...I cannot go...it would tear my heart apart."
"Won't...w-won't you miss me?" her voice faltered,and tears ran down her
cheeks.
Will was sure he wouldn't,but didn't need to hurt Elizabeth even more.
So he said:
"Of course I will. But I can't go."
"You will,but it's not enough,isn't it?" she snapped. "Have you been
cheating on me,haven't yo "No "No!" Will answered vehemently,but Elizabeth felt sure of that now.
"With whom,Will? Tell me now! Is it Annamaria? Or have you already become
a sodomite just because you've become a pirate?"
"Elizabeth, I'm not..."
"Many nights I have awaken and you're not here sleeping by my side. Of
course you've been cheating on me!"
"I've been with Jack,you can ask him that! We like to drink at night!"
"You're lying,Will! Unless you're cheating on me with Jack!"
Will's face reddened. He couldn't help it. And so Elizabeth knew the
truth. Her tears dried and he said angrily:
"You disgust me! *You* *are* *disgusting*!!!" she yelled. "Sleeping with
a man! With a pirate!"
"Well,you *are* a pirate too!" Will yelled back.
"I never was! That's you who are a p a pirate and a sodomite! I shouldn't
have married to a blacksmith,I knew it! You poor people don't have any
sense of propriety! Enjoying anal sex...how disgusting..."
Will got really angry and couldn't help himself:
"And I shouldn't have married to a repressed woman like you. That's why
I need to sleep with other...with Jack." he almost had told her he slept
with other men,but wouldn't tell,for Elizabeth would make him feel even
more ashamed. "You can't give me pleasure! And I *love* him!"
"Enough!!" she yelled. "Get out of my cabin!!"
"It would be a pleasure." Will said ironically,gathered his things and
went out. Liz threw the blanket on the door after Will left and started
to cry with disgust.
Will was so angry that didn't notice Jack and they stumbled on one another.
"Jack!" Will said in surprise. "Weren't you supposed to be asleep?"
"What happened,Will? I...felt yore nre not okay and I...needed to see
you."
"Oh,Jack." Will held him tightly. "Tak to to your cabin...please."
"Sure." Jack melted in Will's embrace and they went to Jack's cabin.
Will told Jack everything and Jack couldn't hide his happiness. But,seeing
as Will was,he ,he didn't say a thing about it. Will had,after all,cared
and loved Elizabeth for a lifetime. He had only known her before. And
now she was going away.
"Can we take her to Port Royal,Jack? I mean,I know we're far from there,
but I need to do this last thing for her. I can't just leave her in the
nearest port and tell her to book a passage in a ship which carries God
knows what kinds of people."
"We can do that." Jack nodded. "No problem at all."
"Thanks." Will held him. "Can I stay here with you?" he kissed Jack's
shoulder.
"You know you don't need to ask." Jack kissed him lovingly,and Will
responded happily. "I didn't know we'd sleep together this soon." Jack
smiled,breaking the kiss.
Will smiled back,and lay on the bed,asking with his eyes for Jackjoinjoin
him. Jack lay beside Will and held him the entire night.
----
Will didn't speak a word to Elizabeth during the trip back to Port Royal.
He continued to have his affairs with the men of the crew and to sleep
every night curled in Jack's embrace. He didn't even try to hide anything
from her. Once she stepped on the deck while Will was with Jack at the
helm. She lingered there for a long time and Will didn't do anything to
hide from her that they were together. They held hands,kissed and didn't
give a damn.
After Elizabeth was taken to Port Royal,Will developed a new mood. He had
been excited and happy about his new life. He loved to have sex with the
men of the crew. But,though he didn't love Elizabeth anymore,her departure
had made him sad and almost depressed. He felt bad because of the way
they had fought. They couldn't be even friends anymore,Will was sure of
that. They had said cruel words to one another and it haunted Will,making
him feel depressed.
His friends in the crew didn't understand why he was so sad. They all
knew he didn't love Elizabeth anymore. And all the men he had sex with
felt surprised when Will didn't want to do it anymore. He just didn't
want it. He needed comfort,and sex without love was no comfort to him.
So he stayed with Jack all the time and slept with him,though Will didn't
want to have sex with nobody,not even Jack. But they slept together,
holding one another,and it was the only thing that comforted Will.
In the evenings,Will stood on the deck,alone,looking at the sky and the
sea. It's not that he was missing Elizabeth. He had lived a lot of new
things in a short period of time. He had fallen in love to a person who
wasn't Elizabeth,had discovered he liked men,had had sex with some men.
It was too much for him,and Will could think about that now. He had been
very rash,as always. He had felt big emotions,not knowing how to respect
himself. Not that he regretted living a hectic life,but there were days
he didn't want to have sex but he did only because he was excited about
it. On those days he felt empty,shallow,almost like a slut. He let the
men do what they wanted with him and then he felt dirty,but he had never
really thought about it. Now that he was thinking - now that he had
allowed himself to be more sensible - he regretted some things. He was
not a hypocrite - he liked men and liked having sex even if it wasn't
with love. Just not every day. Not all the time. It depended on his moods,
and sometimes he didn't respect his feelings and did it all the same.
Will was wondering about those things when someone approached him.
It was Crane.
"How are ye,lad?" he asked. "I've heard you're hurt...you don't want our
company anymore."
"Sorry,Crane,I'm not in the mood..."
"I understand,lad." the man said. He was about Jack's age and had seen
much in his life. "You don't have to do anything you don't want to."
"I know." Will said. "But Ian is pressing me...he wants to have sex...
but I don't want it! He knew it wouldn't last. I don't know why he is
attached to me."
"I'll talk to him if you want to."
Will looked at Crane for the first time that night:
"Thanks,Crane. You're such a friend."
"Don't mention it,lad. But tell me...are you really in love with the
Captain?" he asked simply,not because he was jealous or something. It
was just because he had come to like Will as a friend and a mate and
wanted to help him. He knew the lad was hurt after Elizabeth's departure.
"I am." Will confessed,blushing slightly. "I love him. He's everything
to me,Crane."
Crane smiled genuinely.
"Why don't you stay with him at once? I mean,only him. He needs you. I
know that."
"I don't know. It's so confusing. Jack knows I love him,and he loves me
back. It's so weird,but I'm afraid..."
"Afraid of what?"
"I don't know..."
"Of being happy?" Crane smiled.
"Maybe." Will smiled faintly. It seemed crazy,but made so much sense...
"Don't do this,boy. Life is far too short."
"I know." Will noticed Crane was standing up. "Thanks for listening.
You're really a friend to me."
"Thanks for that,lad. Anytime."
Crane left. Will was feeling better. He thought of Jack,but he hadn't
coo tho the deck once in the evening. Maybe he was drinking,or taking a
bath,or having dinner. But Will felt lonely without Jack. He curled against
himself,thinking about the man he loved.
When he stood up to look for Jack finally,Ian,the crewmember who wasn't
very happy about being rejected by Will,approached him.
"Hll."ll." he said.
"Oh,hi,Ian."
Ian looked at him sensuously and kissed Will's mouth before Will could
say anything. But Will broke the kiss harshly and said:
"Stop it,Ian. You know I don't want to do it."
"But I still can't see why."
"You don't have to *see* anything. It's just my decision and you should
respect it."
"I can't. Like you so much..." he tried to kiss Will again,but felt a
sword at his back.
"Release him." Jack said seriously.
"Oh,come on,Captain,I'm doing nothing. It's just a kiss."
"He said he didn't want to do *anything*. So,will you please release him?"
"Why do you want him all for yourself? He has already shown he can't
belong to only one person."
Jack felt angry,having heard his greatest fear. He feared Will would
never be only his. He knew Will liked to have sex with other men. He was
depressed because of Elizabeth now,but Jack wasn't very optimistic Will
would stay without sex for long.
"Enough!" Jack glared at Ian. "One more word and you'll go straight to
the brig. No disrespect is allowed in me ship!"
"Alright,alright." Ian released Will and left.
Jack turned to Will:
"You alright,love?"
"I am." Will held him tightly. "Thanks."
Jack just looked at him in the eye and kissed Will with all the love he
felt for him.
"I was thinking about you." Will smiled at Jack,after they broke the kiss.
"And do you think I didn't know that?"
Will smiled brightly. It was so good,knowing that Jack could sense him.
They were not afraid anymore because of that. They seemed to have agreed
it was only because they loved one another and cared for each other deeply.
They went to Jack's cabin and drank rum. They loved to stay there,just
the two of them,talking,drinking and sometimes doing things in bed. They
hadn't gone all the way yet,but they liked to pleasure one another in
bed in other ways. After Elizabeth was gone and Will had stopped making
sex with the crewmembers,he just needed to feel closer to Jack. But every
time Jack said he wanted to bugger Will,the lad felt shy and didn't want
to do it. He desired Jack immensely,but couldn't do it yet. He was afraid
and Jack,though didn't understand why,just respected Will's desires.
After drinking a lot of rum,Will asked Jack to lay beside him. Jack got
to the bed and lay above Will. Will smiled and kissed Jack.
"I love you." Jack said while licking Will's earlobe. "I love you so much."
Will moaned under Jack's touch and knew his lover felt his erection
pressing against him. Will kissed Jack eagerly and Jack started unbuttoning
Will's shirt.
He licked and teased his lover's chest,lingering on his nipples. Will
whimpered in pleasure,burying his hands on Jack's hair. Jack gave Will
another heated kiss and started undoing his pants and undergarments.
Will squirmed in pleasure when Jack's mouth finally enveloped his cock.
Jack suckled Will's cock hungrily,while his lover put his legs on his
shoulders.
"Oh,God,Jack,I love you so..." Will whimpered.
Jack continued to suck on Will,until his lover emptied himself on his
mouth. Jack swallowed everything happily and got rid of all his clothes
for Will to do the same to him.
They spent their nights like this,pleasuring one another,and Jack was
happy for that.
----
That night,while Jack slept sated at his side,Will awoke feeling thirsty.
He'd had much rum and always needed to drink a lot of water after that.
Carefully,as not to wake Jack up,Will left their bed and left the cabin,
going to the ship's kitchen to get some water.
He was more than surprised to find Ian there. The lad seemed really
irritated. Will felt concerned and asked:
"Are you okay,Ian?"
"No."
"What happened?"
"It's all your fault." he snapped.
"My fault?" Will asked,astonished.
"Yes. You don't want to sleep with me anymore. You only want the Captain.
I heard you both moaning at his cabin."
"How did you..." Will was going to ask,but Ian said:
"How do I know? Well,let's say I got jealous and went to see what you
both were up to."
"You *saw* us?"
"Everything."
Will blushed,and tried to leave the kitchen after drinking his water,
but Ian caught him:
"If you don't want me willingly,then you'll want me forcefully."
"No! Let me go!" Will cried.
"And shut up!" Ian slapped Will's face while grabbed his wrists.
----
Jack awoke with a start and realized Will wasn't at his side. He was
feeling uneasy and didn't know why. Sometimes he just felt like this
and nothing happened,but this time he *knew* something was happening.
Jack got dressed quickly,as he was still naked after having Will go down
on him,and left his cabin.
He went to the helm,where Annamaria sed ted the ship peacefully. Jack
asked her:
"Is everything alright?"
"As far as I know..." she said.
"Have you seen Will? I awoke and he wasn't in bed."
"Um...I think I saw him going to the kitchen some minutes ago. I'm not
sure,though."
"Thanks." Jack went to the kitchen. A wave of tension and terror rushed
through him and he just needed to know if his lover was alright.
Jack descended the stairs and stopped at the kitchen's door. He froze.
Will was naked and Ian was forcing himself into him.
At first,Jack thought they were doing that willingly. But when he saw
Will's face,he knew he wasn't. The gag on his mouth said it all. He was
being /raped/!!!
Jack felt all his blood rushing to his face. He pointed his gun at Ian.
"You son of a bitch!!! Let him go!!! NOW!" he yelled and half the ship
awakened. "Or I'll kill you!!!"
Seeing as Jack was angry,Ian slid off of Will. Crying,Will ran to Jack's
side,still gagged.
Anna had stopped the ship and went to Jack's aid. Noticing what had
happened,she took the gag off of Will,and held the boy while Jack was
threatening Ian.
"Bastard! You are going to the brig /right now/ and tomorrow you'll be
walking the plank!!!"
"No,please,Captain,I...it's just a mistake..."
"And you have the audacy of lying...I'm done with you!" Jack shoved him
hard and Ian fell on the floor. Jack kicked him at the ribs and Ian
whimpered in pain.
Gibbs appeared at the door and asked:
"For God's sake,what happened here?"
Annamaria explained everything to him,and Jack asked:
"Will you both take this son of a bitch to the brig?" Jack handed Gibbs
his gun.
Anna and Gibbs did as told. Both were really angry. They liked Will a
lot. Will was the kind of lad who conquered everyone. He was sweet and
didnotheother anyone.
After they left,Jack ran to his lover and held him tightly:
"Oh,baby...I'm so sorry...I should have locked him at that time he was
trying to kiss you. It's all my fault..."
Will cried with his head on Jack's shoulder. He was still naked,and Jack
helped him get dressed.
They went to Jack's cabin,embracing one another. Will's face was all wet
with tears. Jack took care of him,comforted him,and promised him he would
maroon Ian.
"I'm so sorry..." Jack kissed Will's tears away,but was crying himself.
"It's not your fault." Will managed to speak. "Don't blame yourself,
love. Just hold me."
"Forever." Jack held him and they slept uneasily. Jack couldn't think
about another thing than marooning Ian.
----
About 10 AM of the next morning,all the crew was at the deck and Ian was
in the plank. Jack was pointing his sword at him,and other crewmembers,
including Crane,did the same. Crane was Will's friend now and got really
angry when he knew what had happened.
Suddenly,Jack changed his mind.
"Pull this bastard back to the ship." he said. "I'm not happy with his
fate. He has to suffer."
Ian pleaded for being released,but Jack paid no attention. This lad would
pay for hurting his Will.
After going to the deck again,Jack and some others started to spank Ian.
Will didn't want to see it. He was at Jack's cabin,and Anna was talking
to him. Will was very distressed and Jack wanted to get rid of the bastard
soon to come back to Will and stay with him all the time he needed.
After making Ian bleed,Jack threw him to the sharks. His hatred didn't
appease. He didn't leave to his cabin before making sure Ian had been
eaten by the sharks. He looked at the scene with a sly smile at his face.
"May it be a warning,boys." Jack said before leaving to look after Will.
"That's what I do with people who hurt my loved ones."
The men left to do their work,fear on his faces. Jack was very kind when
he wanted,but could be really bad at times too. So,all his crew feared
and respected him. Crane feared Jack as well,but knew the man,and knew
he wasn't really bad if not needed. So,he knew he didn't need to be afraid.
He understood Jack entirely. He liked Will a lot,and had wished Ian died
too.
Jack came to his cabin and dismissed Annamaria,who was looking after Will.
She gave them a sympathetic look and left.
Jack kissed one of Will's hands and asked him:
"Are ye feeling better,luv?"
"No." Will said sincerely. "I feel even more like a slut."
"You're not a slut. That bastard forced you. He's dead now,Willie. He's
been eaten by the sharks."
Will nodded,but wasn't happy for that. He felt he couldn't feel happy
for anything that day,much less to such a horrible death. Even if it was
of the man who had raped him.
Jack stayed with Will at his cabin all day,but Will couldn't feel better.
Jack knew only time would cure him.

End of Chapter 4

TBC


A/N: I'm so sorry I haven't updated "Tell me your dreams" yet. To all of
you waiting for that,be sure I'm going to finish it. It's just,this fic
got me hooked. ;) But I'm updating TMYD soon,okay?