Painless

So many words and yet none can express how I feel. Maybe it is because I don’t feel and that kills you.

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At first Jack had intended for the stay in Tortuga to last nine days. After the incident with the boy whore, he tried to shorten our time there by leaving right away. The crew was furious when he broke the news to them and he had “changed his mind” and decided that seven days would be enough.

I couldn’t care either way.

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Jack still won’t let me have my own room. I know he has the money, we ran into enough of it when we beat Barbosa. He still thinks I have some plan and that he has to be there to intervene. Well if that was the case then why did he leave me alone when he played with the whore? I had more than enough time to do something. I guess I’ll just mark it up as him being Jack. The wheels in his head turn at a slightly different pace than the rest of us.

They also turn in an odd direction. I could give some more metaphors right now but what point would there be in that?

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“Will?” Who, me? Because, I’m the only other person in the room so I might not know who you’re talking to, and as if you know a bunch of people with the same name.

“Jack.” There, now we have established that we both know the other’s name.

“Are you mocking me?” Getting a little quick on the uptake, are we?

“Of course not.” Why do you bother asking if you know the answer?

“Yes you are, you just did it again!” Don’t hurt yourself there.

“Why would I do that?” I know why, I just want to see if you do.

“How should I know?” Because you are Captian Jack Sparrow.

“Where is our food, I’m hungry.” I’m always hungry, but that is beside the point.

“Don’t change the subject.” Oh man, let it go.

“Well, we weren’t getting anywher Now Now just stop.

“Well you backed down, so I win.” Win? What the hell? This is a game now?

“No, I know I’m right and you are wrong so what would be the point in arguing other than to make me realize that I am more right than I had thought.” There, think about that for a bit.“Tha“That made no sense. How do you know for sure that you are right?” What turn did this conversation take? Are we going to get all smart now?

“Because you are wrong. Of course, just because you are wrong it doesn’t mean that I am right but it makes me feel more confident that I am right. So, I am probably right.” Now leave me alone.

“I don’t agree.” I don’t care.

“Okay.”

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There is this constant humming noise wherever I go. If I concentrate on it hard enough, it makes me feel like I’m going to pass out. I still do it though, hoping to find the origin of that stupid racket. Jack doesn’t hear it. I asked him and he looked at me rather oddly. I didn’t make up the noise, it’s there. He’s just not listening hard enough, though I don’t know how he can’t hear it sometimes. Once in a while it takes over, drowning out every other noise around me. I have to yell to hear myself. Jack doesn’t seem to like it when I do that. It bothers him.

If it bothers him so much, you would think he would try to make it go away.

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Someone opened the curtain. I don’t like that. I prefer the light to stay outside when I’m sleep It It works better that way. Jack is nudging me, trying to get me to open my eyes but I keep falling back to sleep whenever ovesoves away. After he had done this enough times, I finally cracked open my eyes to see what was so damned important.

Jack looked down at me, obviously aware of the scowl on my face. Instead of letting me go back to sleep, the fool tries to talk me awake.

“What would you like to do today?” I grunted at him, hoping he would take the hint. “I think we should go see what the morning ship arrivals have brought.” I think I should go back to sleep. “Well?” I remained silent for a few moments. “Will, do you think I’m fat?”

I bolted out of bed, trying to fully register what he had just said. “What?!”

Smirking at me, he raised his eyebrows. “Well if I had known it was that easy to get you out of bed, I would have done it much sooner.” I hate you so much right now.

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Jack told me that he has a surprise for me tonight.

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When I walked into the room that night, I had hoped I would find some clean sheets as my surprise. I didn’t expect to see what I did. Evidently, Jack thought I had been rather lonely and brought someone for me to play with. Actually, he brought two. At first I had thought one was for him, but I found out that I was supposed to pick one. He wasn’t sure if I wanted a guy or a girl. I wasn’t even sure. I had never really thought about it. I really haven’t been attracted to anyone recently and it hadn’t crossed my mind as to weather their gender made a difference.

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A/N: Yeah. Sleep now, more some other time. Remember, I update more slowly if I don't be gettin' reviews. So there. I have no shame.

Jessi: Now I want to know what you said that didn’t get through. I do use what people say to get an understanding of what I should work on and what I should push and such, but I can’t do that if the thing is evil and erases parts of your comments. Arg.