An alternative fate

An alternative fate


Later on that night after Luke and Leia had been put to bed and had said good night to both their father and Obi-wan, Anakin and Obi-wan were finally alone and began to talk.

Anakin asked “Obi-wan do you remember Padme’s last words to the both of us?” Obi-wan nodded and replied “yes, I’ll never forget for as long as I shall live, they were definitely some last words.

Some of the things she asked me to do, with more then a little shocking to be honest.

But what does this have to do with anything? No offence Anakin, but this hasn't ever bothered you until now, if it has you’ve not mentioned it.”

Anakin leaned back into the couch and sighed this was going to be more difficult then he had first imagined. He finally spoke after clearing his throat.

“It has everything to do with this. And your right it has never really bothered me until recently, today being the first time I realised I remember all she said word for word.”

Obi-wan looked thoughtfully and asked “what exactly has brought this on all of a sudden Ani?” Anakin sighed and replied “it is not all that sudden Obi-wan; I’ve been noticing the shift in my feelings for you for over a year now.

At first I thought I must have just been lonely and feeling overly sexually charged to ever consider having such feelings for another man. But then recently I realised-“

He trailed off sighing Obi-wan put a comforting hand on Anakin’s shoulder and was elated when Anakin leaned into the touch instead of pulling away. He encouraged him to go on.

Anakin took a deep breath and continued “it was only with in these last few weeks that I came to realise I was having feelings very much akin to what I had felt for Padme before she and I were married. And they were some seriously deep feeling.

I was worried that you may not have approved or not returned those feelings. I never planned to fall in love with you Obi-wan; it was just one of those unexplained things.

It was because of my feelings for you that I remember my wife’s last words. Thank you.”

Obi-wan sighed, he looked clearly stunned which worried Anakin, what if Obi-wan didn’t feel the same. But then what had Padme’s last words meant if not what they’d sounded like?

Obi-wan began to speak and reveal what he had been hiding since Anakin was fifteen years old, and now at the age of twenty seven he was finally going to reveal his feelings he and been hiding for the last thirteen years. The only people who knew were masters Yoda and Windu. And it seemed the late senator Amidala had realised as well.

“Anakin I’ve been in love with you since you were fifteen. I realised that I felt something for you when I first met you on Tatooine when you were nine years old.

But seeing as you were so young I pushed it a side. It was only when you reached your fifteenth year did I start to realise what I was feeling.

I knew exactly what I was feeling and how deep I had fallen when you were sent on your first solo assignment, which was to protect the woman who would become your wife that same year.”

He continued not bothering to look at Anakin or else lose his nerve completely which would not do at all. “I realised I’d lost you that night in the apartment you had shared with Padme, when I over heard you both talking about your secret marriage and your unborn child.

It was that knowledge that made me react the way I had. I realised you were happy and I could never compete with that, or would want to take that away from you. As long as you were happy I would some how manage.

Plus on top of that I had come to practically hand deliver you your dream of becoming a knight, but ended up with a shattered heart. I had then cut off all my feelings from the bond we still even share now from when we were Master and Padawan.

I couldn’t look you in the eye if you were to find out exactly how much your secrets and deception had affected me, I felt it would have been far to embarrassing, and it would have gave you the ability to destroy me.

And so when Padme had said what she had said to me and to you, I just lost it and broke down, I couldn’t help it. It was as if she was giving her final blessing for me to love you, she had said you would in time return those feelings.

Force she was even asking me to play the role of a second father to her new born children, a role as a mother she was unfortunately unable to take on. She would have been such an incredible mother; I have no doubt of that.”

Anakin felt a stab of guilt for all the times he had fought with Obi-wan, not realising how much each and every time he would shatter a small piece of his heart in the process.

Anakin felt anguished by the fact this amazing man had been willing to give up his own happiness in exchange for his own. It had been the night Obi-wan had discovered his and Padme’s secret did the final blow to his heart finally shattered it.

Anakin felt a lump raise in his throat that almost choked him. He realised that night he saw Obi-wan cry for the first time, was not induced by his deception, it was Obi-wan dealing with a shattered heart.

He remembered how cold clipped and formal Obi-wan had been when he had bid Anakin a good night and took off in his speeder away from the source of his heart break.

Anakin could clearly remember feeling like a precious part of him self had been ripped away from him when Obi-wan had banned him from accessing their bond. It had nearly killed and made him feel ill.

And now he knew why, he felt like he was going to be violently ill at that very moment.

Four days he had been left without the comfort of their bond, four days without his precious master, he had felt like a suffocating pressure had been lifted from his heart and mind when the bond had been reopened. He had explored it desperately, just to convince him self it was still intact.

If Anakin felt ill, he realised he was about to feel worse as another memory Anakin had neglected to remember came back to give him a proverbial slap in the face.

“I’m in agreement with Anakin. His marriage to the senator could have quite easily clouded his mind and judgement. He could have easily turned against us the council.

Imagine the person you love dearly is the constant main attraction of your nightmares, and they are dieing in child birth in said nightmares?

Imagine that someone makes assumptions that they can prevent said events from occurring, only if you join the dark side and betray those that you love and have trusted since child hood?

Make your decisions wisely, not only will you be destroying a loving marriage, even doe such a union is forbidden, a loving union it is. Worse you will be depriving an innocent child and very much likely a future Jedi of a deserving father.”

That was what Obi-wan had said in his defence to the council. He could barely breathe as he suddenly remembered something else.

~oh force, help me I love him so much. But if he is happy then I shall put my own feelings a side, my Ani deserves all the happiness in the world. If that means my heart being shattered then so be it~

That was what Anakin had heard. He had known he had heard something. If it was of importance Obi-wan would share it with him later. He had thought to him self at the time. Fuck, of course it was important. Oh god oh god this was horrible.

Anakin let out a anguished sob, he wanted to die. Oh god he was in agony. How could anyone still love him after being made to endure such agony? He was practically ready to boil to the max with self hatred and disgust.

Obi-wan looked up for the first time, when he heard the anguished sob brake free from Anakin. And was horrified to notice how incredibly pale Anakin had become he looked like he was going to be ill any second.

He put a comforting hand on Anakin’s shoulder, which caused Anakin to put his face in his hands as his hunched over shoulders began to shake with the force of his grieve.

Anakin choked out between sobbed breathes “when you cut off my access to out bond that night I saw you crying by the speeder. I hadn’t known you had just gotten your heart broken by my selfishness and arrogance I displayed when I was younger.

When I couldn’t feel anything coming from are bond, no hatred, no anger, no nothing. It terrified me, I felt ill, and it felt like a precious part of my self had been ripped away from me. It nearly killed me those four days I had no contact with you.

Then on top of that discovering the man you trusted since you were nine years old was an evil fraud and sith Lord. Then on top of that I was dealing with nightmares where my wife dieing in child birth was the main feature of events.

The only thing that stopped me falling completely to pieces was Padme and the knowledge of my impending father hood. I’m so sorry. I never meant to cause you so much pain.”

Obi-wan was horrified He had been so wrapped up in his own pain and heart break at the time, that he hadn’t bothered to notice how he turning off their bond had affected the younger man.

He had only seen what Anakin had been going through when he had seen his then apprentices ragged and tiered looking appearance and felt his turmoil when he had reopened the bond.

Just as Anakin was about to continue Obi-wan snapped into action and laced his fingers in Anakin’s shoulder length wavy blond hair and pulled his face closer until he was able to capture Anakin’s lips between his own.

Anakin gasped, giving Obi-wan an opening to deepen the kiss. It felt like his entire being and nerve system were a light with over flowing energy. He was on fire, it felt incredible, he hadn’t felt that alive since before he had lost his wife.

But now it was as if he was being given a second chance, a second chance to make a life for him self, to love once more.

Anakin gently suckled and nibbled on Obi-wan’s lower lip, as he laced his fingers through the soft reddish gold hair. He coaxed open the mouth under his and slipped his tongue past willing lips. The moan from Obi-wan spurred him on.

He let out a low moan of his own as the kiss became hungrier and more passionate. He hungrily suckled on the tongue that entwined with is own.

Breathing heavily they pulled back, resting their foreheads against each others, as they panted and sucked in fresh air. Anakin gently brushed his lips against Obi-wan’s, before letting out a sigh of content against Obi-wan’s lips.

Obi-wan opened his eyes and saw lust and overwhelming love shining like a beacon from out of Anakin’s eyes. He was sure the same look and emotions were mirrored right back in his own eyes. Obi-wan murmured “oh god I want you so much Ani, but it’s too soon.”

Anakin shook his head smiling lovingly, and said “no Obi-wan we aren’t going fast enough in my opinion. I’ve imagined this for over a year, its time to make it reality. You’ve waited thirteen whole and I suspect long years, give in and take what is finally yours, I’m all yours.”

Obi-wan hesitated before he gave in with a sigh and hungrily claimed Anakin’s mouth and plunging his tongue into the warm and smooth depths, exploring newly gained territory.

Anakin grinned into the kiss and plunged his fingers into Obi-wan’s hair, before slanting his mouth over Obi-wan’s, hungrily moving his mouth over Obi wan’s. He let out a delighted whimper when Obi-wan suckled down hard on his tongue, causing Obi-wan to smirk against his mouth.

Anakin pulled away, before rising to his feet gesturing for Obi-wan to follow suit. He slowly led his former master into his sleeping quarters. Once in side he closed the door behind him, before leaning back against it and eyeing the older man before him appreciatively. He slowly walked, almost gliding over to stand in front of the other man.

Obi-wan swallowed nervously, Anakin looked like a predator stalking its prey. He moved with a fluent grace and a gait that can only be pulled off by a real man not a little boy or angst filled teenager. Anakin was no longer a teenager he had grown into a breathtakingly handsome man.

Anakin brushed a kiss against Obi-wan’s upper lip. Obi-wan pulled Anakin closer to him by his waist. They began to explore each other as they continued to kiss.

Anakin noticed his soon to be lover was a lot shorter then him and had to bend over slightly to reach his face. Anakin thought wryly to him self ~what in the name of the force is it with me and lovers that are shorter then my self? ~

Anakin and Obi-wan began to remove each others tunics and belts. They both placed their sabres on the bed side table, before turning to take the other in.

Obi-wan thought happily ~no he is most definitely not fifteen anymore~ Anakin was beautiful. He was broad shouldered, had a firm stomach with a great set of abs. He was toned and muscular, his waist was slender.

Boots and leggings were removed until there were no barriers between them. No most definitely no longer a teenager. Anakin’s legs were incredibly long and just the right amount muscular without being over bulging.

Obi-wan’s breath caught at the naked lust he could see burning in the younger mans bright blue eyes. Obi-wan looked incredibly toned and muscular for a man in his early forties. He in short was beautiful.

Each man took in the sight their lover displayed. Both men were most definitely by no means lacking in the member department, and were supporting rather impressive erections.

Anakin let out a low lust filled growl when he felt Obi-wan’s naked flesh brush against his own for the first time. They continued to kiss as they leisurely explored the others body.

Anakin gasped into Obi-wan’s mouth when he felt a warm and definitely male hand take his engorged member in hand and stroked him in time with the thrusting of his tongue in and out of Anakin’s mouth. It felt unbelievable, his eyes practically rolled back into his head at the blissful action.

Anakin thought with a slight pang of guilt, Padme had never been able to evoke this feeling in him with such a gesture. He supposed with Obi-wan being older he was more experienced and sure of him self then Padme had been in that department. He also supposed it was easier to pleasure someone who had the same body parts and was simulated in the same way and knew what that member of sex liked.

Obi-wan led Anakin backwards until the back of his knees hit the edge of the bed. Obi-wan slowly pushed Anakin backwards onto the bed and encouraged him to lie back. Anakin did so willingly.

They continued to explore each other bodies with hands and mouth, teeth and tongues, nibbling, kissing and suckling.

When Obi-wan had finally positioned him self at Anakin’s opening and push forwards burying him self to the hilt, they both had to stifle their moans and groans of pleasure into each others mouths.

Obi-wan had to pause in fear of coming before he even got started. Anakin was like a hot tight glove, a prefect and delicious fit.

Anakin had never felt so filled before, so complete. He wiggled under Obi-wan gesturing for him to move. Obi-wan did just that, he began to at first slowly thrust in and out of Anakin’s tight hole in an even pace, until he had set a rhythm.

Anakin had to bite his lower lip to keep from screaming, less wake up the children which, was the last thing he wanted to do at that moment.

Anakin met him thrust for thrust as he began to be pounded into. He wrapped his legs tightly around Obi-wan’s waist and squeezed his inner muscles around Obi-wan’s painfully hard length. Obi-wan let out a lustful growl into Anakin’s ear, sending a shiver of pleasure down his spine, making his toes curl in ecstasy.

Anakin gasp groaned and grunted before he huskily whispered in Obi-wan’s ear “Obi-wan please I need to come, I need to come so much.”

Obi-wan grunted and took hold of Anakin’s painfully straining length into his sabre callused hand and began to stroke him in time with his thrusts and his tongue in Anakin’s mouth.

It wasn’t long before Anakin was coming stifling his screams of overwhelming pleasure into Obi-wan’s mouth. Obi-wan followed suit merely seconds later as Anakin’s inner muscles clenched and painfully tightened around him as he climaxed.

They eventually lay on the bed in a tangle of limbs, spent and trembling as they desperately sucked in fresh air. Anakin moaned his discontent when Obi-wan’s softened and spent length slipped out of him.

Obi-wan rolled over taking Anakin with him. Anakin Snuggled up to Obi-wan and rested his head on the chest underneath him and purred in contented bliss, before placing a kiss over Obi-wan’s heart.

Obi-wan chuckled, his voice light with amusement as he asked “Ani are you purring? I could have sworn I heard purring“; his only answer was another cat like purr. Obi-wan chuckled again and kissed the tip of Anakin’s nose when he looked up.

Obi-wan brushed a kiss against Anakin’s lips before murmuring “Hmm I love you Ani.” Anakin returned kiss just as softly and murmured against Obi-wan’s lips “I love you to so much.” They continued to kiss and cuddle until both felt contently into a deep sleep.

They both continued to wake during the night craving the touch of each other. They didn’t call it quits, and weren’t fully spent until two in the morning.