Confession

Jack Sparrow sat at the bar, drinking alone. His adventures with Will Turner, Elizabeth Swann and Barbossa were long over. His crew docked in Tortuga, and he sat at this bar as they all went out having fun before they left in the morning.

But something in Jack was aching. A yearning for a young man of whom he couldn’t forget. During his time with Will he had started to love him. The boy loved Elizabeth more than words, and Jack tried to push the feeling away. It was true, he had had his share of women. Only to swallow the feelings of loneliness he kept inside. He had had male lovers, and had loved none of them.

‘I’m a pirate… I don’t get to love.’

His eyes were heavy and he was more than a little drunk. The walk back to the Pearl was difficult. But when he entered his quarters he only sat on the bed.

“I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you,
without you in my head again
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you,
that you ever lived
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying dow res rest
I'm Dying to live without you again…

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent.

I'm Dying to live without you again

The first time you left I said goodbye…”

He woke up the next morning. The ship gently rocking in the waters of the bay. He realized a knock at the door had woken him from the slumber. Anna Maria stood at the door when he opened it.

“Captain, we are ready to make way.”

Jack paused and then smiled.

“Make way to Port Royal. I have business to take care of.”

The look on her face told him she thought he was crazy. They would be hung on sight.

“I want you to drop me off at the port. I’ll leave you in charge… Come back in three days to collect me.”

Her eyes softened and before she could make any snide remark, he brushed past her.

“Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this
As long as there's a breath...

I'm Dying and I can't live without you
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again”

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The town buzzed with action. Women and men going to and from the market. Will opened the door to the shop and stepped in.

‘We’ve grown apart Will.’

Her words still I his mind. She had wanted to speak with him.

‘What do you mean Elizabeth?’

As if he didn’t know.

‘Everything is just different now. You and I aren’t meant for one another. You know this as well as I do…’

Her eyes were dry, and he just didn’t care anymore.

‘Maybe it would be best if we…’

She didn’t need to finish the sentence. He knew what she was aiming for. And was glad. The obsession he had once felt for her and burnt itself away during the times they spent together. She was only a good friend to him now, and he knew why she no longer kept him interested…

He went to work on another sword. It was just routine now. His mind wandered to the year before and his times with Jack Sparrow. It had been months since he had seen Jack. And it was probably the last time. Jack was a pirate to the core and had no time for visits.

“Friday night, I'd just got back
I had my eyes shut, was dreaming about the past
I started drifting to a different place
I realized I was falling off the face of the world
And there was nothing there to bring us back
'Cause you're a million miles away
A million miles away…”

The crackling of the fire and the steady dinging of hammer against metal continued as he thought. Every detail of Jack’s face was fresh in his mind. Will had only ever felt love after Elizabeth before. But as he thought about Jack, a new level of feeling came over him.

“And there's nothing there to bring us back today
Today…oh no
I took a ride and I went downtown
The streets were empty, there was no one around
I went to places that we used to go
Seen all the places that we used to know
I'm at the wrong end of the looking glass
I'm trying to hold on to the hands of the past and you”

After a few hours Will stopped and washed his face. The bed in the back room called to him. And as he lay there, he thought that even now when he could have Jack, he had no idea where he was. And even if he knew where Jack was, chances were that it would never happen. Will had seen Jack slapped by way too many women to even think Jack was into men. And as dreams tightened their hold onto him, he knew that none of it really mattered.

“And there's nothing there to bring us back
'Cause you're a million miles away
A million miles away
And there's nothing there to bring us back today
Today…oh no
'Cause you're million miles away
A million miles away
Just a million miles away
A million miles away
And there's nothing there to bring us back today
Today…'ay…'ay…oh no…”

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Jack felt sick as he stood on the doorstep of the blacksmith shop. What would he say? How would he tell Will the feelings locked deep within his heart? But he pushed the thought aside as he stepped inside.

The bell sounded as the door pushed open. Everything was quiet for a moment and he thought no one was here until he saw the young blacksmith step out from the back room.

As soon as Will saw the pirate standing in the middle of the shop his breath was taken away.

“Jack…”

“No… I came all this way to tell you something. And if you start talking now I’ll never be able to say it…”

Jack swallowed back the lump in his throat. His eyes drunk in the slender figure in front of him. He wanted to just laugh and say he was joking, but he couldn’t hide it and couldn’t get this boy out of his mind.

“I think this is very likely to end with you telling me to leave and nevere bae back… But some things you can’t hold in forever…”

Will noticed the nervous tone in Jacks voice and wondered what could be so bad that would make him this way. His initial shock of seeing Jack was still running in his veins. But the fact that he didn’t have to speak helped to hide it.

Jack looked directly into Wills eyes and continued.

“I can’t stop thinking of you… Every day since I last saw you all I’ve wanted to do was come here and tell you that… I’m in love with yo
I
It was out now and Jack saw Wills eyes widen.

“I know that you love Elizabeth, and that this is probably the last thing that comes to mind when you think of me. But I can’t think about anything else… I came here to get this off my chest. And if you want me to go, I’ll go…”

Jack looked down, not wanting to see the look of discust on Wills face. But after a few moments of silence, warm hands touched his chin and forced his face to raise.

“I’ve searched my heart to try and find a way to rid you from it. Thinking that this was impossible… But here you are Jack… And I couldn’t be happier.”

Will brushed his lips against Jacks, feeling the tender skin give way and push against his.

“Come into these arms again
And lay your body down
The rhythm of this trembling heart
Is beating like a drum
It beats for you, it bleeds for you
It knows not how it sounds
For it is the drum of drums, it is the song of songs”

Jacks heart pounded, and without noticing at first he started undressing the young blacksmith. His hat was thrown off along with his belt and gun. They both kicked off their shoes as the stumbled into the little back room where Will slept. They broke the kiss to pull off their shirts, and they stood in awe.

‘He’s so beautiful’ Will thought, as he touched the soft skin around Jacks torso. The older man gently laid Will back on the bed and unbuttoned the boys pants, sliding them down to reveal a nest of black hair surrounding his cock. He smiled up to the blushing blacksmith as his hands went to work, gently caressing it.

Will gasped as Jack opened his mouth over the throbbing cock and enclosed onto it. The inside of Jack’s mouth was warm and he could feel the mans tongue massaging the sides and licking around the head.

“Once I had the rarest rose
That ever deigned to bloom
Cruel winter chilled the blood
And stole my flower too soon”

“Jack…” The name escaped from Wills open mouth as he reached down to run his fingers through the black mane, taking only a moment to slip the bandanna off and throw it across the room. Jacks hair spilt over Wills stomach and the tickling sensation only made the pressure in his groin grow more intense. But before he could climax Jack stopped and sat up.

Jack took two fingers and licked them thoroughly. Will furrowed his brow, wondering what he was doing until Jack lowered his hand and gently inserted one finger into Will, making the boy gasp loudly with surprise, then moan even louder with pleasure. After a moment Jack inserted the second finger and worked the opening, stretching it.

Jack pulled his fingers out and beckoned Will to move so he could lay on his back. Will understood what the preparation was for as he looked at Jacks hard cock. Jack pulled him on top and eased his way into Wills entering.

“All loneliness, all hopelessness
To search the end of time
For there is in all the world
No greater love than mine…”

Wills body tightened as Jack entered him, his mind swirling. Jack took the boys hands and intertwined their fingers.

“Whatever you feel… Know that I feel it too Will…” Jack’s voice heavy as he spoke.

Will moaned and threw his head up, “Just don’t stop…”

Wills back arched as the rhythm grew faster and called out Jack’s name. Jack sat up and wrapped his arms around the boy, labored breath escaping his mouth. Wills hands found their way back to Jacks hair, grabbing it in both fists. He leaned his head back as he moaned again.

“Oh God… Will…” The voice rose from the sweating body, rocking under the younger man.

Jack moved Will onto his back and hovered over him, digging his fingers into the bed. Wills hands moved to Jacks back and he rested his chin on the older mans shoulder, breathing heavily into his ear.

“Are you okay?” Jack asked as Will let out a whimper.

“Harder…” Came the response.

Jack pushed in faster, feeling the boy quiver under him. His breath coming an short gasps.

“Yes…” Wills mouth barely moved, but the word was clear and Jack smiled.

“No other love, no other love, no other love
Not other love, no other love, still falls the rain
(Still for the rain) no other love, no other love
No other love, no other love, no other love
Still falls the night, no other love, no other love
No other love, no other love, no other love
Be mine forever (be mine forever) no other love
No other love, no other love, no other love
No other love…”


Jack pulled out and Will opened his eyes, wondering why.

“All fours.” Jack smiled, watching the boys look of confusion but obayance. And once the boy was on his hands and knees, Jack entered again. His hands grasping Wills hips as he thrust faster and faster, making the boy moan so loud he began to wonder if the people on the street could hear him. Jack began to feel the gentle spasms in his stomach, he could feel Wills insides tighten and he knew the boy was about to climax as well.


“Let me be the only one
To keep you from the cold
Now thoor oor of heaven is laid
With stars of brightest gold
They shine for all to see
Come into this arms again
And set this spirit free…”

Will screamed as his body was ripped through by an orgasm. He heard Jacks cry as well. He fell onto the bed, and Jack fell next to him. Their bodies covered in sweat, and heartbeats pounding. Jack turned to him and kissed Will, his eyes filled with something Will had never seen before in any human being.

Jack laid on his back and closed his eyes. He waited until he heard the soft snores from the younger man before he closed his eyes and slept as well….